see me drown, drown deep in you.
caus pictures are deceiving, behind those smiles leads a thousand sorrow.
8:17 PM
i've missed you by 5 mins
i just woke up and here i am blogging after my daily routine of
checks up for my friendster and yadayada =.-
i realised i missed bi by 5 mins again :(
i dont think it matters much to him now.
was waiting for bestieKU to text me last night till very late,
then he tertido plak =.- haiyoyohs! takpe, not the first time kan?
yesterday night follow mok go down and pick busu up.
went to my house the nearest 7-11 at the shell.
saw many familiar faces; iskandar,karthik, hafiz.....
the rest tak kenal lah :( anyway, people keep staring and smiling at me
i caught iskandar's eye but he seems to avoid :( i dont know why.
i cant recall doing anything bad to him? a few months ago we're
still in talking terms, haishh.. maybe so long never contact them already.
made them feel so left out or something. aku tetap sygkan korg lurh.
karthik smiled and say hello, ahhh! didnt knew it was him, i knew he was
familiar; da hansem lahh kann.
bought my ciggs caus i cant keep smoking ang hun my fingers
turn yellow, my lips burnt, my throat sucky =.-
last night dream was i dont know what you call that but i do not wish
to believe in that dream. it felt so sad and unbelievable.
true enough, i woke up with tears in my eye(altho i cant really remember
the content of the dream; consist of two parts)
it goes something like this :
i was engaged to my boyfriend, yes ENGAGED!
at the age of 16 or 18; i cant remember.
i was damn sad, very very very sad.
not because of the unGLAM engagement but because
i NEVER wanted to get engaged or married :(
but still this engagement continued.
his family were in purple and mine were in blue.
no fancy wedding gowns, we're just clad in baju kurong.
then i was too sad to even see whats happening.
okay, then i cant remember already.
how sad is that?
i woke up with tears in my eyes. i do not know why.
i cant even be sure if that guy in my dream is my boyfriend.
till now, im still pretty upset. yes i know it's just a dream.
but you see, that DREAM 4 years ago tells me that dreams DO
COME TRUE OKAY!
ahhh, one thing for sure, i know that in the dream i got engaged
not because i was pregnant. but haiyoh,
nowadays where got people get engaged so young one?
god save me please? tell me the meaning of the dream :(
i need to go buy a book that can intepret dreams.
SERIOUSLY, my bitch(deear) once told me that there's such book,
it's expensive but the worst part was it IS IN MALAY!
haiyoyoyoh. nevermind, at most i will look up the dictionary lah kan?
today i'll be all alone at home, so dont be suprised to see me blog like
4-5 times =.- i've nothing better to do.
okay now, i've gotta go check sgclub; a long long time since i've been active.
byebye see you later
5:56 AM
awwwww!
uhuh, confided in bestieKU (irfan). awwww!
kecoh beh kaypoh lagy ehk bestieKU? (:
MUAHAHAHA:D
how cute can he be? yes, although he's a year younger,
but he never fails to be there neither did he fails to make
me go GAGA(: and and our promises kan bestie kan kan kan?
hah! see, he likes me i likes him too!
suke jehk ehhk, bestieKU? kekek siots!
the one who understand my mix language! (haiyoyohs!)
ahhh, he will try and and ask that HOT guy along; omg!
yes, LOL. caus they knew each other =.- aiyo!
whatever it is, i'll be meeting bestie later in the month!
mesti best kan? ade baby ader, sume best(:
*self-praise*
that day might be the MEET-THE-GUYS-DAY .
hmmmmpfts, i think sooner or later me & bi's gna drift.
ahh, drift yes drift. to the left to the left =.-
hasn't been talking much, hasn't been contacting but ohh..
maybe they says "absence makes the heart grew fonder"
ahhh, dont ply that on me=.-
still very emotional now, i dont know what i should do.
i've stopped reading that book, caus i dont like it.
dont like the body line also, sounds almost the same with the one
i read before :( therefore, my very very kind brother is going to
borrow me a new book tomorrow. better be a nice and interesting one,
if not i shall make him go over and over again.
bitch might be comin over tomorrow at 3 (:
hmmmpfts, she makes me wanna read "braless" so much .
ahhhh, anyway... here i am eating 2 bars of chocolate (:
sorry, i cant help it.. i swear =.-
i finished my ciggs, shall wait for busu to come back and roll for me.
hmmmpfst, i know how to make that smoke effect.
that thick thick smoke then take pics sure nice one (:
DONT TELL YOU, kaypoh!
ahhhh, my bitch so gna be proud of me.
anyway, christmas coming..
all i want for christmas is ... THAT BOBBI BROWN BRUSHES(:
awwww, kidding lahh ehk.
all i want for christmas is .. (______________) fill in the blank.
okay ciaos!
gtg entertain people nows!
c ya baybehh
2:25 AM
easy come easy go
awwwwww! these cute people just spice up my life (:
new friends are pretty much lovable.
to all whom tried so hard to get to know me, thankiu so nice.
ooooh, did i mention i saw a hottie on friendster?!
AWWWW! okay, shaddup =.-
i found the joy in puffing already (:
LOL. still am cutting down; therefore i've to enjoy my every puff.
yes bi asked me today since when i become so jiwang?
ahhh, this i do not know :(
afterall i realise jiwangs not that bad what..
granny's out again; her usual mahjong session.
brother hogged the com the whole afternoon.
GLAD, now it's my turn. i'ma stuck my ass here
for another two hour or so.
i missed so many people ;( it's been a long time since
i mingle and mix and get to know more friend.
i dont deny; im emotional this few days. wna know why?
spell P-M-S ahhh :(
hmmpfts, had stupid stupid cravings think about stupid stupid things.
i realise i dont know how to make someone happy,
but i can make someone laugh and feel love.
but all these applies to everyone except MY BOYFRIEND :(
ahhh, somebody teach me to make him happy.
gawwwwwwwdddddd!
see so many sad face up there already right right right?
new year's coming, i do not know what to do.
anyway, i miss my bitch. she's in camp now:( oh no, she'll
be back TOMORROW! ahhh, yes !
she'll be dropping by tomorrow baby! (:
can i say or can i not say?
okay, my bitch sort of got very angry with me.
she didn't like the way boyfiee treats me, she wants me to
wake up from my dream. ahhh yes the dream :(
i dont want, very reluctant to ! anybody tell me what to do?
okay, now spell STRESS. am muching non-stop on the crackers.
now what?
hear this, my relationship; my say.
sad.. off to munCh.. BYE
Monday, December 8, 2008
10:08 PM
slumber party for two
okay baby, ditch the clothes, put on your bra and boyshort!
let's go PARTAYYYYE , till dawn (:
am still very excited about the upcoming slumber party.
but whether its this month or not, im not very sure.
camwhore,drink,bitch,dance,sing.. what else have i missed out?
dressup-s, makeups...
awwww!
idk if it'll even come true; we just quarreled last night :(
still i bitch her, i still love you joey.
8:36 PM
if it's time to wake up?
thinking hard what baobei said yesterday,afterall it's just a dream.
a dream that is shared by two, consist of two who knew each other
and got seperated but in the end they found each other.
not to reconcile but because of the dream.
what do i want to gain from all this? is this love?
why be together when we dont love each other?
why try to be together when we dont try to love each other?
but as i always said; guys will always be guys.
no matter who you chose to be in a relationship with,
no matter what's the ending, in the end.. you've just gained yourself,
another pocket full of memories; bitter sweet you decide which to
remember and which not to (:
i cant answer those questions i posed to myself;
because everyone will say it's stupid.
yes stupid, i did it or the dream.
caus you weren't there in the dream caus nobody else
except the two of us, you never knew how beautiful it was.
you never knew how amazing it was that two human being can
actually dream of each other in the same dream and aftermath
found each other 4 years after. 4 years, spell that.
that proves, the dream wasn't just any ordinary dream.
maybe we chose to remember but maybe we believe that our other
half is the person in the dream, i do not know.
what i know was, it was never my intention to be in a relationship
with him, we were unsure of each other.
but by taking this step forward, to be together;
maybe it can spell another step closer to fulfilling the dream.
once i fulfill the dream, i dont mind if we have to go our seperate ways.
i swear ;( but has anybody put themselves in my shoes and stop
discriminating my decision? i know it's stupid but i chose this way.
i chose to stay stupid, and to believe in this.
(although i never believed he's my another half)
but i still love him dearly. yes baby, i still love you.
i knew i love you even before i met you.
4:10 AM
;sorry bad quality photos :( taken with my phone.
this is the photo for today; the rest with baobei.
hmmmpfts, here i am blogging at 8.15pm.
i just woke up from my nap 4 hours long nap.
bi stil haven't text me nor have i any news of him
ahhh, spell D-E-P-R-E-S-S-E-D :(
i ate a big plate of rice with i do not know what you call that,
and then i spread nutella on 2 breads and i finish em all:(
yes, today 2 and a half bar of chocolate again.
but hey, i made an improvement i only puffed 4 sticks today(:
say YYYYYYAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY!
yes the bitch, did it! maybe caus the weather's too cold.
okay, i had people telling me i looked like 19 years old today =.-
ahhh, and they're so obsessed about knowing my age.
c'mon, LOL. age is just a number right?
anyway, i feel that im fat already, i want to go do some lady marmalade dance.
hah! (random, i know)
okay, i havent touched my book for the whole of today.
that book ; ahhhh! crap =X so many bombastic words.
hmmfpts, i wonder if people judge my age due to my make up?
ahhh, that one i do not know; let me go find out now!
ciaos!
Sunday, December 7, 2008
10:32 PM
cut it short
baobei was late again, nevermind. this time the whole
family was late :( woke up late, later than expected.
partly because someone texted me and then i realised im freezing.
hah! cleaned my nails and then off to bathe and then reapply my
toe nail's coat then make up and then baobei came over.
as expected, she forgot to bring her thumbdrive :(
so pictures will hafto wait till wednesday together with today's photo.
today sucks, i rather not go :( thats why we're back so early.
realise my other family members went to kl and then the rest
was working, sleeping, busy doing their things =.-
and i still bloody take the effort to wear baju melayu altho it's
raining but nobody else did except baobei =.-
argggghh! went to supermarket then, hah! crocodile got sale (:
so bought a white top for bi~ heh, almost same same like the
one i wanted to get him in renoma. if he doesnt wants it,
then i'll use it (: H-O-T!
see the title up there? cut it short.
:( in no mood to blog, bi's not back yet i think?
no msges no online no whatever.
bye,
9:20 AM
flesh and flash
yes,baby! tomorrow, first thing in the morning..
my bitch gonna come and pass me all the pics
for friday in her thumbdrive oiiii(:
this time, not as many scandalous shot.
definitely, not in the mood.
(pssssttt...the rest of the scandalous shot's still not with me)
hmmmpfffts, she didnt wants to pass me her-oh-so-solo-shots.
but goddamnit! i need them to do the darn scrap remember?
awwwww!(: she offered to lend me her dress and belt ;
for this coming very very very big event .
i know, thankiu bitch, but i might want to figure it out myself first.
see that?! that what's real girlfriends are for!
anyway am blogging this at 1.25am.
i rushed my bitch to sleep lest she's late tomorrow again!
then i start reading my book :( so CHIM, my gawddddd!
okay, this post is supposed to be a very very short one,
because it's supposed to be that way.
i'ma go puff and off to bed, earthlings!
wont blog tomorrow:( maybe?
ehk, kecoh lurh. okay, the petite princess need her
beauty rest now :( it's been a long time since a guy said that to me.
no; no guys text me this okay!(now)
used to.... but ..... haish. whatever!
goodbye you!
5:34 AM
awwwwwww!
i'm back from work (: spell NO WORK TOMORROW!
hurrayyyy! hari raya haji spending at my aunty's crib.
not sure if i can catch bi online tomorrow:(
well work today was BORING, so little customer,
so little things to do. and my mp4 died on me
(forgot to charge), yes died on me like 30mins after i start work.
so bored, didnt bring the book didi borrowed from me.
hah, "any place i hang my hat" =.- love story.
shall bring it over to aunty's crib tomorrow,
i dread the idea of applying nail polish tomorrow morning after
bathe, wearing baju melayu, and entertaining kids!
OMFG =.- hah, but i HAVE to learn to like babies by next year.
: ( my new year resolution !
nieways, today send a tray over to the salon and then saw ahgong=.-
hah, this malay lady keep staring at me =.-
me: "i tell mak uh, you never go home after work"
ahgong: "dont say lei, i cut hair only"
LOL. this lady must be thinking why a malay would haf connection
with a pure chinese guy:X _!_ stare summore lurh.
so he keep pester me not to tell granny he went over,
couldn't be any bothered with him then off to work.
no; hibernating (: daddy dropped by, haiyo!
what's up with my life 2 most important guys dropping by on the same day?
HAH. daddy passed me school books money to pass to grann,
and then passed me $20 share with didi.
how nice is he? lol. he'll be coming next week; that means
my allowance should be enough for me to spend on my next outing(:
*psssssttttt.. that is if i save!*
bi's gna be back by tomorrow! awwwwwwww!
i dunno if he'll text me tho :( his phone got confiscated.
blame it on me ;(
uh, i need to go clean off my nail polish later.
wake up early tomorrow; bathe, manicure and then makeup.
*no puffing for tomorrow*
lazy lurhhh. still need to pack my bag, wear my killer heels. omg!
= blister and more blister.
should i not wear my heels? but; buy so expensive than wear twice only.
haiyo, plaster plaster, standby please!
didi's birthday coming already = 27 more days!
my gawdddd! i havent buy him any present yet :(
gna go out on the 29th with my bitch and casper & mok & didi
to get out school stuffs and then off to celebrate his birthday!
[T-O-W-N]
casper & mok getting him that 195++$ puma watch.
(the one with touch screen i think?)
:( unfair! but nevermind f480 2 more months, i'll wait!
then then im going to convince daddy to get me my levis watch.
(the one and only brand; he will get for me)
*smack on my head*
nevermind, i get MY DKNY WATCH MYSELF!(as if)
o.o i forgot to mention; i bumped onto royhan mustaffa and i forgot who.
is it mustaffa the name? cant remember.
i didnt make eye contact with anyone, i thought im going to be late for work,
in lazy mode, practically dragging my flops :(
then trance was still blasting my ear ; as usual( i want to sleep!)
then they keep shouting my name, i cant pretend i did not hear.
my gawdddd! turned, smiled and walk to them.
yadayada - aftermath, royhan asked for a handshake.
didnt make eye contact with them ; none!
then i realised im not the only pathetic one! muahahaha:D
they tak senonoh uh, at bus-stop roll ang hun!
haha! wear so smart then smoke ang hun (:
MY GAWDDDD!
today at work, was chatty. chat with my ladyboss.
about christmas, shopping,sentosa,her kids, new year.
awww! she's a mother of 3 ! my gawdd! i cant believe okay!
she got 3 son, and her figure is wee-weet!
NOT FAT, thin as me (: shorter than me a bit.
pretty ladyy oiii!
i cant even tell that she's 29, not say a mother of any!
okay, today is so the jiwang =.- 3 malay songs playing in my head.
why is it so? i do not know either, okay!
at least i dont miss bi that badly like the first day!
ooooohhhh! i cant wait i cant wait i cant wait for the rest of the pics!
i'm feeling crappy now, oh! dont worry, i feel crappy every night.
i gave up, i gave up, i gave up!
i gave up on shopping, i gave up on YOU, i gave up on my mother.
i miss mummy, but FUCK IT : (
i hate you, hate you, hate you ! get that clear in your head mummy!
you're never forgiven, not now not ever ! (might, if you apologise)
im not that bad okay! i wont disown you, but feel free to disown me!
caus i dont bloody care! =.-
i hate it, i hate you, i hate now! if i never helped you,
i wont hafto go thru all this, if i never has helped you, you wont have
all this! but you were never grateful, you never appreciated!
now TAKE THAT! arggghh! whatever, whatever, i cant be bothered!
hah, now i understand how much didi hate you, he hates you more than i do!
BUT YOU LOVE HIM MORE THAN ME. argggh! shaddup!
i got to go now, i can rants 101 things i hate about my mother.
nuisance=.- i am my brother's mother & sister!
so who not happy with my didi come find me lahh ehk!
BYE!
Saturday, December 6, 2008
8:23 PM
all road leads to rome
i learnt from baobei;
if you go to italy, no matter what road you take,
as long as you never give up, you walk and walk...
you'll reach rome(:
(sorry the picture on top dont really match the title
;caus the picture for this title is with my bitch)
have you any idea, that wishes come true?
have you had any wishes that come true?
hah!" i wish i wish with all my heart "(phrase from a cartoon show)
....hmmmpts, why kaypo about my wish?
AHHHH! muahhaha:D
my wish is my dream to come true ; a real dream uh!
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(private)
i pluck up all my courage, all my determination;
i gave in my all.
i succeeded not seeking comfort in your messages to put
me to sleep, succeeded not seeing your picture.
to you, i chose not to forget. but i wont wanna live in
the past; i chose not to delete your msges,
i chose to only seek them when im all alone.
i didnt forget you nor forget what i promised.
you know who you are;
ps: i miss you
5:28 AM
i'm officially blogging here at 9.29pm :(
i just got back from work, and 'hush' is still on for me.
today work, sucks to the core.
left home at 5.20pm walked the longer route, caus i dont
wanna die early. as usual, another 2 guys tried to picked me up=.-
but im not interested, oooops! "i'm TAKEN,baby"
then it started to pour very heavily, so i gotta U-turn
and bump onto them again, to take a longer way so that
i wont get drenched as much :(
first thing i did was to order 'deer meat hor fun' from the tze char stall.
hah. $6.00 gone, but worth it lurh. NICE NICE VERY NICE!
sat with an uncle, i dont know him and am having my earpiece on,
with TRANCE blasting my ear =.-
then he started talking to me, asked me what i eating, how much...
and then goes like... " ya, deer meat very expensive hor.."
but this uncle, looks like ah pek to me =.- but he speaks very good
english (: hmmmm, today i realised many AHPEKS, can talk very
fluent english, very educated, very friendly & nice!
i managed to finish up the whole big plate of deer meat hor fun.
MUAHAHAHA:D all on my own! include some of the veges!
awwwwww! i'm a grown up now(:
so proud of myself! puffing aftermath.
and then start work :(
i got scolded by MR POON _!_
ninabei, customer say soup never say is my soup right.
ccb, i so good help the duno who clear her plate, and is her soup.
better be glad if not the customer FCKING COMPLAIN UNTIL
YOU LOSE YOUR JOB ! =.-
respect, for you no more! don't think you old, can bully me :(
wait till, i complain to granny! make sure she kan you kan til you siao!
PUAH CHEE BYE, BUEY SONG ASK MY BOSS FIRE ME LAHH!
hah! then make me sad, :( everyone knows i cant get scolded
worst still, screamed at; sure cry !
but this time, i didnt cry . maybe caus i've grown up?!!
but still very sad, not my fault what.
hmmmpfts, made me miss bi even more. read his msges, felt very
comforting (: especially one of this sent long long time ago:
"asl bi u nanges uh?blang i luh jgn sembunyi kan"
haha! make me laughs. i still miss him, but everytime i touch,
my phone, his face appear ! muahahah! then i'll start laughing.
very comical, VERY <333
ummm, then then.. daddy dropped by:(
was in sleeping mode, still trance blasting my ear
(fyi: i listen trance to sleep)
he saw my bracelet and say "wah baby is your name"
LOL=.- then i go like " ohoh, he knows my name now"
then he say "people ask you come work, you like want to die like that"
me: "hello, 15 mr mins finsih work alr, summore nothing to do lah dey"
damn, he went to the fruit stall, bought i dunno how many longans.
and then brought a plastic bag, sat next to me and distribute =.-
ask me bring go home. i was like "huh? you want me to carry that?"
ARGGGGGGHHHHHH! my gawd!
when he left, i started eating the longan on my own.
and before he left he went around telling everyone im his daughter,
and asked if we looked alike =.- (his friend was laughing)
while me giving that si-bei-sian kind of face, and almost falling asleep.
didi came and fetched me, i realised i spend so much today again:(
always like that, at least i didnt buy cigs!
i bought my topup card(havent topup), standby only!
so if bibibi(: start msging me then i can text him. awwwwwww!
talib syg asked me to call him later, caus im bored.. & missing my bf.
he said if i talked to him, then i wont miss my boyfren.
ahhhh, cam paham jekh=.-
hmmmpft, off to send bi a long long long offline msg.
and rant ! yes, that's what i do last night.
ummmpft, POOF!
BYE!
12:11 AM
the magic makeups makes!
SO... YOU CAN TELL, before fully make up and after(:
then you'll know how magical can makeups be!
(those pictures above are not edited)
then, you'll realise how important it is to buy makeups,
get the expensive ones..and NOT put make ups for the sake of putting.
a tip for my fellow readers;
BRONZER does magic!
haha, i've this bobbi brown bronzer(i think can last me at least 3 mths)
i taught baobei how to apply bronzer on face.
first follow the T line, forehead down your nose bone,
and then your chin. followed by highlighting your face.
that means apply bronzer using A brush following your face bone,
the sides(: then apply some bronzer above your cheekbone.
bronzer is necessary because it helps you sharpen your features,
therefore when you take pictures, you'll look more (idk how to explain)
LOL. baobei told me bronzer can actually makes you look more bustier.
if you apply bronzer on your bosom line, then middle one (cant remem,
what's its called) =.- in the middle of your breasts.
wahhh! and then you can apply, many parts(: sadly,
it only works for the upper body.
that's all for today folks!
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now, i'm having a headache, from forcing myself to wake up
from my nap to bloody use the computer :(
then i wont feel so sleepy afterwards at work.
i'ma go eat before i go to work, granny's cookings today not to
my liking and i said i wont go on a diet anymore to boyfieeeee.
AHHH! hungryyyyyyyy:(
still listening to hush, haha! i've so much i planned to do, but
am to lazy to start becaus firstly, im tired secondly, im hungry.
i need to do something about my hair, F-A-S-T!
the curls, not going the right way :( i'm lazy to bloody do my hair.
o.o anyway, i've made up my mind, to save every single cent!
yes, save! because i need to buy more makeups.
i realised my makeups are so OUT. my gawdddd!
and every single set i see is 100$ not includind the brushes!
and i'm going to go treat myself to back therapy by end of next year.
now, i'm feeling the urge to get things going my way.
i'm feeling SO ADULT NOW! (in fashion sense and all)
i need a new concept for everything, i dont wanna go with the flow.
god, nobody knows what im talking about, except my bitch.
HAHA! conclusion; ITS A GOOD START!
okay, please make way.. the big fat baby hafto go now!
goodbyes, earthlings!
Friday, December 5, 2008
7:31 AM
if it's isn't you
yes, awfully i miss bi :(
i cant not blog about this very moment, i'm sneezing hard.
i wonder if bi misses me too, but i don't think so :(
but if it isn't him then who?
my nose's blocked now, my tears just rolled down my cheek.
} from sneezing too hard and so many times.
my back and arms hurts so much; sun burn:(
but worth it, for my tan line!
anyways, i forgot to mention... me & baobei did sand therapy on our own!
yes, i told baobei what granny told me.
*secret.....shhhhhh!!!!*
im listening to LL cool j- hush(:
yes, practically im very OUT, very sentimentel sort.
i miss jazz, :( but i dunn haf a particular fav song so i could find any.
my mp4's song is so out. i hafto do something FAST!
yes, if not... i wont have the drive to do all i wanted to!
to me, life is fine now! but if i really wanna do anything big, things
MUST be perfect (: (as in the essentials)
i need a shopping spree, FAST! my closet is so limited:(
i know, stop reminding me that i always wear th same old clothes
when im out, caus my wardrobe is really pathetic!
anyway, today my bitch asked if i can stayover her house (whenever)
as in SLUMBER PARTY, for just t-w-o!
oh my oh my, im so excited.. when, i do not know yet!
it's just so fun being with her(:
she takes my mind off everything, inspire me to inspire others!
back back, im going to start saving now.. so by the 29th or 26th,
i can go on a mini shopping spree! on my own or not, i dont care!
i'm PERFECTLY fine shopping on my own(:
then i going to start saving again, for another shopping spree on FEB (:
as a birthday gift from me to myself!
and then save all the way till JUNE ! GSS !
OH MY OH MY! i dont know if i will make it, having N's :(
but, i must MAKE IT! bet, there's sponsors again!
okay now! i'm off to read my very expensive mag, and then off to
update my financial status in my diary planner plus update my shopping list.
byebye,
i miss bibibi!(:
I can feel ya pain
Like we siamese twins connected by our brains
Walkin thru the desert in the ice cold rain
Want u in my life and nothins gonna change
God willin, we still be doin our thang
5:47 AM
(the first day)
today, as expected my bitch woke up late. VERY LATE.
while the very good "ME" was on the com until 10.30.
and we're supposed to meet at 10.45=.-
i keep spamming her phones (both hp & house phone)
for goodness sake, she still didnt wake up:(
bathed, packed, make up.(will show you pics bef. & aft make up tmr)
OKAY. so yes, busu very kind heartedly, ride me there(motor).
to my bitch house, caus she finally wake up at 11.30=.-
took her address, went to her crib.knocked the door until
i almost die =.- haiyoyo! i slacked in her room, while
waiting for my dear bitch to get ready & yadayada.
needed to puff urgently, and so luckily.. she asked me to puff at
her balcony (: awwwww! sweetest girlfriend!
and her balcony is big, i tell you! enough to fit a queen size bed,
or 3 people doing yoga or for 2 to dance(:
while waiting for her, i browse thru her mags. sat on her bed.
when she's done we cabbed to ECP, then i realised that
i cant withdraw my money (lazy to explain).
so kind of her to lend me first (:
bought mac, sat on a bench with table by the beach eating..
before deciding where we wanna settle for.
(bitch : first time i have a friend who eats before taking off her clothes,
all my friends don't eat for a day before the day they go to the beach)
HAH. pathetic, im not like them! i have what they dont(:
[my very very very impressive figure =.-]
settled somewhere by the beach yes! beach, on the beach.
took off our clothes, straight after i put on my sunblock.
essential for me, bitch! reapply make-up, lip care & lip gloss.
put on the shades, blast the mp4, camwhore, and off for nap.
practically many people staring and bitching bout us.
HAH. who cares? baobei said : "TODAY IS A WHO-CARES-BOUT-US, DAY"
then we pout and give that mean face and "KE-CHIKK"
take photo, :( sadly i dont have any of her photos..
as usual will get in a week or two.
we stare at people who stares at us.
many kind, banglahs, aunties uncles, youngsters, girlfriends who
stared at us and then the boyfriend joined in too, lesbians,
butches, foreigners 0.o?
my GAWWWWWWD! we even thought of taking off out bikini and
do the full back kind of tan, as in for the back part only=.-
but no, wearing bikini in ECP already looks like so O-B-S-C-E-N-E
yes, spell that! camwhore 100 over all with her :(
sun tann, damn! there's this few parts when i totally cant take the heat,
i excused myself to puff in the shade on a bench,
then it really feels like you're torturing yourself in HELL.
but for the sake of saving money, and natural tan :(
we realise it's so hard to get tanned (tan line).
me: "hey,im not supposed to do this okay!im the princess"
baobei: "yes, princesses goes to TANNING PARLOUR"
awwwwwwww! it hurts okay, we lay there for more than 4hours,
to get the tan line we have now(: hmmmpfts, so proud!
we did went in the sea this time(: HOT HOT, NICE.
we goes like: "ahhhhhhhh!wahhhhhh!"
LOL. very very very nice shot we had !
(skip details, too lazy to say)
then at 6 plus, we went off (:
off to shower and change. practically many people look at us.
bitch: "i felt like we're parading in bikinis"
HAH. my gawdddddd!
rinsed, realise we got no plastic bags to put our bikini and wet towel.
make-up. felt so "HMMMMFPTS" yes, because i didnt bring my
blusher, my eye shadow & eyeliner:(
i washed my face like nobody business when i rinsed myself
;forgetting that i had my make-ups on:(
but luckily, the eyeliner still intact (: HAHA!
while applying make-ups this few malay girls, and 1 chinese girl
keep staring at us. prolly, we're too noisy. or they just wanna
learn a tip or two on make up (me teaching my bitch how to apply...)
bitch: (say out loudly) STARE STARE,HAIYA NEVERMIND LET YOU STARE
WHAT YOU HAVE I ALSO HAVE =.-
my gawdddd! (refering to the chinese lady)
haiyos, so direct :XX hurting y' know.
taught my bitch, how to apply bronzer, where to do what ...
and the malay girls keep staring at us .
haiyohs! i know i look old and matured, dont need like that.
or maybe i too H-O-T =.- i cant fit into my flesh imp skirt(nicely)
FAT , IS ME. ME IS FAT :(
I really cant stand people staring at me :(
they make me feel like something is wrong sumwhere..
my bitch : am i too fat or what?
me: is my bra sticking out?
HAH. lol. still got many stupid question we asked ourselves.
*skip skip*
bought a damn 6$+ magazine caus i just wanted a plastic bag:(
cabbed to hub, payed my bitch. off to seperate ways,
on the way home.. saw ernest, sent him to bus-stop.
talked, 3 normal topics; gang, class & tattoo
LOL. happy for him that he passed & will be joining us next year in sec4(:
glad he changed his mindset already. chiong ar chiong!
MUAHAHHA:X
okay now, i donno what to say. not in the mood to say anything.
my boyfie's out of town :( DAMN!
hah, LOL. it's okay, im fine.. VERY.
work's tmr, sian.
& i puffed so little today, so proud of myself (:
GOODBYE YOU!
Thursday, December 4, 2008
5:25 PM
1st day :(
okay, am blogging here at 9.25am plus plus.
my god, baobei's still not awake :( we're supposed to
meet at 10.45 and she havent packed and whatever.
(me too lurh) the thought of bibibi already left singapore,
haish.. spells L-O-N-E-L-Y!
im pissed im tired, i dont know if today outing ever work out.
we're deciding hard between beach & town.
but the most obvious fact during our conversation last night
was we're both moody :(
now, i'm done spamming her house phone & hp.
let's see, poor thing i couldnt really remember what level she lives at.
i'ma take my time get ready, if by then she's not awake,
i'm so bloody gna take the bus to her house, & WAIT FOR HER
UNDER HER BLOCK :( it's not the first time anyway.
haiyooos!
the only sad thing is that, no bf to accompany me text like the last
beach outing. i'm off, before i really explode noW!
12:19 AM
SPELL 1 ; O-N-E
hah, yes pathetically 1 more day to me going out
with my bitch (beach or town,let the weather choose)
and bibibi's off for KL together with danny oiii!
(& their family lur)
=.- hmmmpfts, i realise i've matured a lot.
NOT that matured(looks) lur! as in my thinkings(:
this morning, went to market never expect to see so many
people that i know. razif or razul? hah, idk which one is which,
saw one of them with his girlfriend, walked past the block they
slack, i do not know what he doing with his gf on him on a chair=.-
didnt realise it was him, but the only thing i know is the girlfriend,
said something and stare at me. cant be any bothered.
everyone's staring at me :( pffffts, yes again!
uncles, auntys, driver ( hah, one even turn to look at me while
riding his bike & the guy behind him also), youngsters.
awwww! make me feel so HOT. LOL. just hate the idea.
anyway, i saw venson;erzi, ivane;kor, jj, nurhakim, hakim, susu.
LOL. yes, everyone was practically staring at me=.-
i do not know why, cant be bothered.
maybe they're shocked that i'll be up so early and go to the market.
this morning, i couldnt wake up. but i dragged my feets, i feel like sleeping.
got home, quarrel with arthur yes over ($) and gang.
went online, chat with bi and danny, and kaixuan and i cant remember who.
lunch time, i realise that i had this "thang" for fried chicken wings!
(home cooked- marinate with sesame oil)
awwww! the last time i ate chicken wings before my eating disorder
was the raya outing with my primary school friends(:
went to ckigu zarina house, told them im on diet but..
damn! it's like as if there's this tag on top saying : "EAT ME,PLEASE?!"
ohh no, soft spot.. i'll go like : "YESSSSSS!I'M COMING....."
hah, then without realising i ate 7 chicken wings!
my goodness! AJ and all were going like:
"hey, i thought you're on diet?!diet konon!abeh makan 7 chicken wing!"
then he said so loud the rest were liek "waahhhhhh!"
=.- i know, they cant stop teasing me :(
today granny fried chicken wings, again.. i didnt realise i ate 7 of them.
yes, 7! i could go on, when granny stopped me (:
good thing, at this rate i'll grow fat, FAT. (not obese okay!)
now, the good thing is i get back my appetite..
caus every food i see seems like they're telling me "EAT ME,BABY!!"
YEAHHHH... IM COMING DARLING!!
(i sounded so gay)
while poor bitch, having a hard time losing weight :(
everyday she ran around the park near her home, 2 rounds.
=.- damn, i can never do that!
everytime she feels like giving up, she'll imagine that finish line
is the "SKINNY LINE" so she'll chiong ar chiong!
HAHAH. practically laughing awayy!!
hope tomorrow's weather will be sunny! oh, ima go check on yahoo.
haha, that's how crazy i can ever be.
fyi; i just finish mugging 2 topic (not chapter uh)
at least, improvement okay! im proud of ME.
i found the joy of mugging now! hah, like real :(
but see, i gta work forward my goal y' see.
okay now, enough crapping...
i love bibibi(:
LOL.
ciaos!
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
6:09 AM
goddamn it yes, :( i know you know i havent talked
to my boyfriend for the whole of TODAY!
damn, yes i didn't upload all the other photo:(
baobei didnt really bring the USB, caus her very good friend
has not used it tho. and then her friend transfer the photo,
to a thumbdrive and guess what? so many photo is missing.
while me is pissed off now, having to resize my photo :(
and so much more to resize, i felt like a bitch now.
1 more day to 2 weeks.
2 more day to .....
argggh, i've got to stop this counting thing.
well, i mugged today (sort of) prepared my notes..
(i damn wrote my own notes)
did f&n but before i even complete CHAPTER 1, my eyes
just hafto close :( guessed i woke up too early today.
so off i went to sleep till baobei text me says she's coming.
and i didnt really realise my phone was ringing =.-
i thought someone on my mp4 :(
HAHA. my very moronic brother thought so too!
yesterday, i wrote my 2009 new year resolution,
accompanied by my nonsensical SHOPPING LIST.
&& wish list .. plus my things to do (AGENDA)
hah, DAMN NONSENSICAL i tell you:X
but i realised, i've not done face mask for more than 3 months :(
i've not went on a huge shopping trip before.
and many many more...
i feel like killing myself for not resisting indulgence.
yes, 3 days ago i start eating 2 bar of choc, yesterday 3..
today 4, GODDAMNIT FOUR, (SPELL IT)
:( i'm so gonna grow fat, now im craving for kfc.
been like.. 2 months since i last ate kfc.
ARTHUR has not return my money, mummy has not gave me
my money as promised :(
currently texting bestieKU (:
hah.. oh danny hope i'm online tomorrow=.-
errrrmmm, i do not know why;
i dont really know him and i've nothing much to say to him
besides the topic about MY BOYFRIEND(:
hahahahaha.
CASHMERE MAFIA is now on my screen.
guess what? my BROTHER is watching it, not me.
LOL. fanatic huh? i guess he likes drama a lot.
he watched like 3 drama today=.-
aaaaaawwwwwwwwwwww!
im going crazy, without you here baby!
;somehow this song just randomly play in my head.
i do not understand why i feel like mugging everytime im tired.
and end up sleeping, but be proud; I PICKED UP MY PEN!
yes, i actually start writing = i did not lost my writing sense.
i guess i'll turn in early today after another daily bitch talk,
gotta go to the market early tomorrow (:
ULTIMATE X GOOD + GIRL = ME(:
yes, granny's working tomorrow thus ima got to go to the market.
friday is coming... coming.. coming... OMFG :(
that's = 1 day left with bi.
heh, none of his nonsence for 3 days yes 3.. i think?
glad my bitch gna spend the first miserable day with me.
& saturday , sunday my mind's gna be occupied with work.
and bestie gta accompany me (:
dunno if royce will come down and fine me... awwwww!
my confession:
i bought a pack of ciggs :(
because the ang hun i roll myself sucks and gimme
soar throat =.- too thick already, not thin,
and and some bo kick :(
GOODNESS SAKE!
byebye, i'ma go find some food to stuff myself!
3:44 AM
; kisses are appreciated!
; when she's all i could ever ask for(:
; there goes my bitch, staring at my figure AGAIN!
;NO NO, we didnt plan this! i swear !
;idk she took a picture of me =.-
;pictures are illusive
; my bitch love my figure yo!
; BEST SHOT (:
bitch's originality
; no no, not seducing
;what's with that face, bitch?
; CANDID
; how nice is the view? (VERY!)
;WHEN BOREDOM STRIKES
;sunn tanning yo!
; the one i'll grow old & saggy with
; tilt you head to the left, you'll see a heart shape(:
; awwww! GAGA
; the ugly back i talked about?
; no no, not seducing
;what's with that face, bitch?
; CANDID
; how nice is the view? (VERY!)
;WHEN BOREDOM STRIKES
;sunn tanning yo!
; the one i'll grow old & saggy with
; tilt you head to the left, you'll see a heart shape(:
; awwww! GAGA
; the ugly back i talked about?HAH. baobei trying to prove how pretty permed hair is
;deear's gifts to us (: blue dolly's mine!
;deear's gifts to us (: blue dolly's mine!
she said it resembles us!
; my courage & strength
;bitch shot
; saw the wallet above the pink box?
; my courage & strength
;bitch shot
; saw the wallet above the pink box?
HAH & my presents!
; the PRESENTS (:
; the PRESENTS (: the wrapped present with red heart is mine from baobei.
(forever21 wallet cum clutch in pink!)
1:08 AM
my chat with danny (1/2 only)
**DANNY the Guy Next Door** says:
really
**DANNY the Guy Next Door** says:
im nt sure...
**DANNY the Guy Next Door** says:
but i knoe that me n his family goin to kl this fridae morning
} BABY♥ANGIN lur siol <333 says:
yes i know. you going also?!!
**DANNY the Guy Next Door** says:
yahh...y?
} BABY♥ANGIN lur siol <333 says:
oh nothing, just take good care of him. and and you all gna be back by monday morning rigth..
} BABY♥ANGIN lur siol <333 says:
right*
**DANNY the Guy Next Door** says:
yeahh baby
**DANNY the Guy Next Door** says:
u are right
**DANNY the Guy Next Door** says:
how u knoe?
} BABY♥ANGIN lur siol <333 says:
hah. okay! HELLO, im his girlfriend =.- shouldn't i know some details?
**DANNY the Guy Next Door** says:
hahahahaha\
**DANNY the Guy Next Door** says:
okok
**DANNY the Guy Next Door** says:
heyy i gtg....
} BABY♥ANGIN lur siol <333 says:
sure thing! tata!
**DANNY the Guy Next Door** says:
i hope tmr ur onlinee...
} BABY♥ANGIN lur siol <333 says:
yea ! see ya(:
**DANNY the Guy Next Door** says:
takkee caree
} BABY♥ANGIN lur siol <333 says:
takinq care you!(:
HAHAHAHA=.-
how cute is the both of them? LOL.
just chat with danny, on msn of caus!
LOL. the first few missing part was about me asking him,
where is his bestie cum my boyfriend.
:(( havent talked to him for the whole day,yet!
and i dont think he came online today either.
and he didn't text me too!
okay, im feeling crappy now(dont ask why).
baobei's on her way here...
yesyes, ima go fetch her now! so blogg laterrrrrrrr(:
hope bi's online later. awwwww!
goodbye yous!
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
7:40 PM
IF I MISS YOU
okay, 1 more days to 2 weeks with my beloved boyfriend(:
2 more days to another beach outing with my bitch,
and then bi's off to KL :(
so he said if i misses him got to his friendster=.-
(got a lot of his picture)
yes, i know dear. but thank god, i had his photo printed
& laminated just nice in my wallet, and countless
of his photo in my phone(:
HAHA!
that spells 17 more days to our first monthsary.
26 more days to APITO's birthday !
22 more days to getting $150(LOL)
12 more days to my next allowance from daddy:D
3 more days to work :(
HAHAH, bi is gna be back my monday's morning.
and and im so proud i had to spend the first miserable day
of bi not being with me (lol, actually not talking to me)
with my bitch by the beach.
i'm so gna stuff myself with CHOCOS.
looking forward to taking more picture, or bi's sake!
baobei is gna come later after her drum lesson,
prolly in the evening. i hafto go off soon :(
my brother gna hog the computer again!
and bi's not online :( so i dont get to talk to him.
awwwwww! yes, sadly.
had a nice (texting) chat with my bitch last night.
feeling all guilty that i got her aneroxic while i stuff
myself with endless chocolates =.-
and trying to persuade and tell her how much i love her
like this, she dont hafto lose any weight or yadayada.
I BITCH YA, BITCH!
muahahah:D
hmmmmpfts, granny cooked chicken rice:X
ehkk, and we're her guinea pig, partly becaus baobei's coming.
haiyoyo!
tsk tsk tsk. i promised to start mugging today.
to make me like mugging more, ima start with F&N.
(what is short-crust pastry?)
yes, pathetic. ooooh!
i'm in love, i'm in love, i'm in love!
i know bi will say like "siao uh?"
LOL. random,
i'm excited for friday beach outing, but i dreads friday :(
becaus that spells the day that bi's so gna go KL .
heh, ya!
and now, im pathetic than ever.
my very very very lovable busu did not roll the damn ang hun for me.
so i hafto roll myself.
i hate it lur, i roll then the kick is damn kao(thick) one.
summore, i roll NOT NICE. yes, can smoke can already.
enjoying my every puff (:
ciao for now!
3:12 AM
bibibi(: said it's nice oiii!
tell me it's nice isn't it?
LOL. had a nice time chatting with bibi (texting).
yes, as usual i always made him mad :(
but never fails to coax him oiii!(:
he must be loving me :XX
okay, goodbye now!
12:51 AM
WELL WELL WELL(:
i'm back, i know this is my 3rd post for the day!
bi's off to watch his ben10; awwww! so cute!
went to buy some essentials, and then cant get granny's
orbit chewing gum :( caus the pharmacy is close.
haha!the nearest pharmacy is at j8.
no crazy, definitely i did not go to j8 lur.
my usual casual outfit, my grey top with grey hotpants,
no didnt wear my flops, used my giovanna flat clogs.
(lazy mode; practically dragging my feet)
no make up ons! not even foundation and loose powder.
still, i do not understand why people keep staring at me.
ohoh, i bring my cotton on environmental tote! lol.
stuff all my bought things in it (:
I HATE STALKERS! good grief, of all things to be,
why inspire to be a stalker?!
=.- cant understand people nowadays.
and and typical mat reps wannabe =.- sad sad, to see..
so young wanna be mat reps, and even try to hook girls up.
EH HELLO; PLEASE OPEN YOUR BIG EYE,
IM OLD ENOUGH TO BE YOUR OLDER SISTER, DONT
TRY TO HOOK ME UP, CAUS IT NEVER WORKS!
(p.s: i hate people who ask for numbers and kenal2 on the street)
pssssst...i saw a few of my schoolmates, i bet they gna bitch about me,
like ; eeeee, she wears so minah or what shit.
having bad hair day, amazing i didnt even style my hair,
and to me i look like a mother of 2 :(
yes, the minah-lian tak menjadi .
HAHAH! no joking*shy*
anyway, what is wrong with wearing a body hugging
top, when you have got the figure?
what is wrong with walking with confidence?
hello; my mummy taught me to walk like that!
:( caus if i don't and is she saw me, she's so gna scream at me !
yes, sorry but true my mummy cares very much about
this confidence kind of thing.
and my body shape; yes the stupid S shape...
is controlled by mummy since young FYI.
my bitch knows why :(
kay enough says!
now, i just hate people staring at me. but what shoud i do?
hey, c'mon you'll never find me clad in long sleeve shirt or t-shirt
yes t-shirt and idk what shorts in central okay!
goodness you!
and is it guy's nature to stare at girl's bosom?
or bitch about how big their bosom is with their friends?
GOODNESS, c'mon guys you're only how old lahh.
whistling and your pick up line is so "OUT"
tsk tsk, fancy picking someone who looks dunno how old
older than you, shameless!
hah! enough of ranting, im off to text BI (:
awwww! i act like im 20years old. that's OLD
Monday, December 1, 2008
8:01 PM
i've just woke up:( and pop, im here in front of the computer!
yes, i've not bathed. i felt like lazing around, and off to bed.
muahahaha:D but nahh, ima good girl(:
after this, ima go buy some essentials and then go lepak!
hah, yes. it's been 9876543210days (thats exaggerating).
okay, lets see, i've not hang around ever since school's close.
yes, you know my daily routine after school, is just slacking.
yes, i miss the whole bunch of cliques(different).
and how touching it is, when they sponsors you ciggs.
HAHA! so yes... i'm still thinkinghard if i should go get my
diary planner later or not :( maybe not..
i dont need it now anyway. yes, save money!
hmmmptfs. chatted with bestieKU yesterday, (text).
he asked me to find him a suitable nick name =.-
LOL. tell him, so late at night where can think, otak jam
brain juice not flowing. hah, so he says i like to make him laugh,
so late at night ! lol.
nieways, IS.. don't worry about ahboy again okay?
like what i told mamy, he's old enough to think.
he's 17 for goodness sake! you know i know, he can survive
out there on his own. i already said:
"you say one time, say two time... third time just say "K qo!,
jangan nak menyakitkan hati orang !"
just let him ti ti kia long dio piah(walk straight,bang the wall)
when he bang enough already, he'll wake up and whether
he wan to turn left, turn right or gostan, not our problem.
caus by then, he will know what is right for him.
at most let him, bang till he got concussion and DIE.
bitch is so upset, she couldn't call me last night.
but she needs to talk to me badly. so she texted me.
i felt like im a loghead, this few days i sleep, zi tao cant feel
my phone vibration. yes, i felt so bad.. not being there for you people.
okay, so i need to start mugging already.
yesterday tried to do the sudoku, and found out, im stuck!
damn, brain juice not flowing (night time lur).
ummmm, yes. i cant complete the easiest thing:(
well nieways, bitch coming over tmr with the photos! and
i'll be so excited (: yesyesyes! i need tuh go and print pictures.
GOODNESS SAKE!
okay ima go do my things now!
gone with the wind!
WOOOOOSH!
3:31 AM
okay, i know im getting crazier.
(fyi: this is my fourth post of the day)
crazy AUNTY, if she hadn't screamed her lungs out,
i bet i'll still be sleeping away =.-
goodness, cant you tell that the house is so dark and arggggh!
waking up at 7pm when i slept at 4+,5 :(
and now, my bloody headache is here.
anyway, i realise i cant remember things that take place,
recently but i cant remember things from the past =.-
if im going to continue like that, N level must study now..
remember later , if not last minute study..
OTAK JAMM (i know i sounds like bi now,)
well, the highlights of the week :
1.wednesday evening : my bitch will be here together
with HER camera & USB(aiyoyo,) to bloody transfer
all the photos for the other day to my computer(:
yes, excited. bet bi's more excited.
nieways, the photos i have now is considered very DECENT alr.
the photos in her camera can fits in these categories;
scandalous,seductive,stupid,innocent,lame and....
(for us to know for you to find out)
goodness! i dont know if i should ever upload all of them.
you know bitches do their things (:
but but, i realise i used to be very shy whenever someone
flashes a camera in public wanting to take photo.
but with my bitch, all else doesnt really matters.
with her around, nothings is impossible.
look stupid? we'll look together, feel stupid?we'll feel together.
my bitch of 4 years coming 5 . im proud of her.
well well :( im hungry now, i wished i hadn't woke up.
now i gotta go think what to make for myself.
i hate cooking =.- (dont ask me y i chose f&n)
tsk tsk tsk.. i know i've lost touch of the topic i start with.
lets continue...
2. town with my bitch and then to the beach .
yes, beach again:( but bi thinks its a good either,
rather have me at the beach then town, shopping my every
penny away. =.- ya i know, boys will always be boys.
town for baobei to get her new bikini.
should i get one too? caus mine fits me just nice.
and it's a present from mummy:(
or should i get a monokini? but i wont like monokini's
tan line =.- its much more of a swimming costume to me.
no c&k sandals :( no shopping :(
just the monokini or bikini then cab off to ECp.
yes again, friday.. will there be like more than usual people?
ahhhhh, hack. we dont wana go sentosa, having people staring at us.
we'll be contented enough, placing our beach mats ON
ecp's sand right in front of the beach and sun the tan on!
EHH I KNOW I CRAPPING, JUST READ OKAY!
i wanna eat beef ball noodles now :(
RANDOM BUT AWWWWWWW!
no noodle, rice please? i realise i dont eat noodles.
hmmmm, beef kway teow sounds nice.
but no, saving moolahs = eat at home OR starve yourself.
tsk tsk tsk.
i dont miss bi, i dont think he misses me too!
muahahahah:D dont know what is there to miss,
when we havent even met each other =.-
but,i do miss his nonsence okay!
& did i say? i was pranked by him 3 times today!
awwwww! like small kid, cute but true!
imma go off now ladies and gentleman.
be back tomorrow. i wont be blogging as much like
this again. and i realise its already dec.
and as i said that imma go stuck my ass in front
of those books and swifts my pen=.-
but i havent done any of those, i seriuosly need a BOOK.