MISSING IN ACTION
for 1 week or so...
take good care, my friends (:
Thursday, October 30, 2008
10:46 PM
;i don't need another heeeeeeeartbreak,
leave me alone (:
*this post shall be for the past 3 days
wednesday(29/10):
went to amk mrt to meet raid (:
we just somehow slack behind the mrt station.
staring at each other, gave him his present.
and he asked what i gave to him, i opened it up and show it
to him=.= (why was i supposed to even be opening it?)
he took it, turn the bracelet and asked:
"how to open?"
LOL. i said:
"i told you, it was stretchabel(& showed to him)"
he took it, and wore it on the spot.
i felt very awkward though, was puffing half the time.
staring at him, staring at people, staring at the mrt station,
staring at the grasses, staring at people who stared at us.
i couldn't really bring up a topic to talk.
i couldn't smile and act as nothing is happening.
i opened my wallet check my things.
asked if he wants me to throw his photo(laminated).
he asked me to keep, i gave him back 1 instead (:
then i threw my old photo with my ex into the drain,
he thought it was his photo=.=
he picked it up, asked why i threw?
i said, why cannot? it's not his photo anyway.
i pulled his braclet and let go, asked if it hurts.
he said no, then yes.
(: then i said "this way, you wont take it out"
he acts as if he's gna take it out though, but he didn't.
as said, we hugged and we took peekchas.
i don't think i look nice in it :(
wasn't in the mood to smile neither is my hair
tied properly=.=
then at 4pm we bid goodbye.
(shall not elaborate)
at night, was msging with Darwin(another primary schoolmate,
same school as Raid)
he said Raid was stupid to leave a sweet girl like me,
i told Raid though.. he said.
"i've my reason to leave a sweet gal like you"
=.=
then at a later part, darwin couldn't get to sleep.
he calls me "ADINDA KU TERSAYANG"=.=
he said there's this feeling in him, to want to know me more.
asked me my fav colour,number,shopping place and drink.
(i actually answered them all)
then asked him why, he repeated that he wants to know me more & closer.
i said, "you mean you want to know me more than Raid does?"
he said "yeah"
=.= he said he msged me only then he happy.
i said, isn't that the reason why people talks to me?
isn't that the reason why people love me?(right, royhan??)
LOL.
didn't knew he had got feelings for me till the later part.
i rejected him though.
i said "i told you from the very beginning of this conversation,
i wouldn't want to go into a relationship.and you knew i still
love him"
he said it is worth a try, and asked how i knew if he's gonna hurt me?
but i still stick to my answer NO.
i had no feelings for him, neither will i in the future.
i like my life this way, and thats THAT!
thursday(30/10):
was supposed to meet sakhai but postponed to friday instead.
because i do not know how to get there.
went for HISTORY remedial=.= 1 hour, slacked.
finished at 11am but choy keep delay, and im supposed to meet
sofea(SWEETFACE) and im so late.
so i just walked out the classroom and off to kfc to meet her.
then we walked around central to get my bag(:
then after, i send her to school's back gate while i went home.
changed and off to central again, with buchuk and yadayada.
ate kfc (:
darwin msged and said i said he could msged me 24/7
i tetap layan!
hey, i do what i says okay.
he knows it too.
met ena my sistarh, lol.
since we're already at kfc.
she gave us a box of pizza to bring home.
planned to go to the zoo on the 10th with her.
went home, i dyed my hair=.=
fucked up, some gold not gold, some brown not brown,
black not black=.=
midnight, then i use my grandpa's hair dye dye back my hair .
natural brown =.= but like black.
and not enough hair dye so my hair turns like shit =.=
HAHAHAHAHAHA
nevermind, i shall go dye again.
dye twice in 1 day, my hair turns like __
friday(31/10):
went to school for social studies, 6girls 1 guy =.=
slacked, my hp not silent, msged openly,hears mp3.
choy doesn't even bother.and we 4
(sofea, me,yuefeng,xinyi)
hair colourful siol.
we got arguement with rulin(battle of the sexes)
LOL.
didnt went to meet sakhai at sembawang though :(
last minute he had to go to work.
o.o nevermind, i had many plans.
then after that i went to meet my ex(arthur) at boon keng(bendemeer).
he treat me $5 breakfast, ate macspicy oi!
talked about bendemeer people, pathetic.
asked why, bendemeer ppl 1 by 1 all wan toh alr?
then he said, "bendemeer ppl wont toh wan!"
=.= tsktsk, why lead this kind of life.
so much things had happened ever since i didnt went
down alr. it's only 3 weeks.
found out that those who supposed to come out from prison
already come out, supposed to run from boys home & hostel
already run out,supposed to go into hiding already went,
supposed to go school already go, supposed to go work already go.
didn't manage to finish it up, after that went to meet pinky
at towner (st. george).
still couldn't believe all these, never thought they will go stab people
and yadayada. for those landed in hospital, really pities them.
keep asking arthur, is this the kind of life they wanted?
:( felt very very very distraught.
then we sat and slack, they told me something so funny.
but i didnt laugh though.
they said got new kind of cigg selling in 7-11:
(in hokkien) kah nuah, am kun nuah, cui nuah, baby nuah =.=
^^in sequence: leg spoil, neck spoil, mouth spoil, baby spoil =.=
sumth like that lah, didnt really understand at first.
then realised they're saying about the picture in front of all
pckets of ciggs=.=
lol. pinky's am kun nuah, mine's cui nuah.LOL
i asked for 1 cigg, he asked wann sushi nuah not?
he take out his sushi gve me:(
afterall, was fun with them.
got tricked and bluffed as usual.
arthur's playing the same old prank he did 8months ago.
then he pinched my cheek, i pull his hair,and we cross the road.
LOL. he expects me not to be angry though.
mummy just called, check things out(:
said if i ever need somebody to talked to just text her,
and she'll give me a call.
how comforting is that?
haha, told her i want to go to shatec (:
she said she'll find her way to make me go to shatec if i really
wanted tooooooooo!wooooohooo!
i wants to go get a bike license when im 18(:
cm'on baby! it's time to do your own things.
tata earthlings(:
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
7:35 PM
(: if today will be the last day,
i'll hug you with all my might ~
yesterday didn't meet RAID though, he can't make it:(
(changed to today 3pm)
well well, was entertaining 2 guys while 1 enetertained me(:
(on msn luh)
was chatting with sakhai, gabriel and royhan.
my 2 bros & 1 hunk.
o.o
royhan said although we've long not talked to each other but
we still can communictae well.
(isn't that everyone likes a bout me?)
LOL. i can communictae with almost all kind of people.
he was nagging(some sort), telling me its not right to do this
and yadayada. saying he's an angel from heaven, it's just that he've
forgotten to bring his ring above his head and his wing.
_!_ hahahaha. precisely, i was laughing.
so he meant i was a devil sent by hell.
i told him how life was, and how's life about trying out.
a little whiskey won't kill, it just sinful.
gabriel was telling me about relationship blahblah.
say why my feeling fade and he said:
"if you tell me my grandparents still have feelings, i'll laugh"
LOL. don't they?(he said, they're tgt for too long alr)
hello brother, time doesn't really kills feeling lah.
he said he's going to the movies today with his gf watching some
horror movies, i said it's okay as long as he dont
scream the hell out of people's mother & father.
(he love to say people mother father)
swee uh, gabriel say he not scare ppl beat him, ask them come nia.
ai zai uh,
anyway, work yesterday was better than first 2 day.
as in i get more friendlier more adapted.
:( my boss find out i smokes (summore is my granny friend)
luckily the couple is very understanding and they wont breathe a
word to granny :)
so now i still get my smoke break.
yesterday, altho 15mins to knock off, i really cant tahan.
nose was bloody stucked and im sneezing most of the time,
guess therefore they know i need my ciggs.
asked for permission and they say wich place can smoke, where
cant smoke (all my granny fren all around)
=.= so grateful,
saw nana laogong, dont think she saw me.
by the time i want to shout for her, she's gone.
today is my off day :D
i do not know what else to do after meeting RAID.
great, (: i'm bloody gna go home and cry.
LOL. no worries hunk! i'ma big girl now, remember?
ROYHAN HUNK said, he still keeps the letter i wrote to
him when he's gna graduate in his wallet :)
o.o and yesterady i read all my past comment.
saw what i wrote to him, being written back to me,
so i'll remember.
i NEVER THREW AWAY ALL THE LETTER anyone wrote to
me alright?
includes, hunk, sofea (& her sisters), syaz, adlin, xuan......
i miss lantern leis, wrote to him comment.
wonder when can meet up again, at temple.
LOL. so that i can sit his bike? and go rounding again.
the last time we did that was 1-2 years ago.
we went out at 7 came back past midnight(:
see how beautiful and peaceful hougang is.
so i stand behind his haro while he rides me.
(: i said anything happen, i help you chiong you just run.
hahahahahahaha.
typical me, always like that when im with anyone.
the rest of the time was me riding his haro while
he rides his daddy bike.
miss those time, run here and there.
but nahh, all mature liaos.
-.= yesterday my 2 boss talk to me many things,
and about marriage. i say " i dont want to marry"
:( i bloddy repeat that to many people yesterday liek hunk and yadayada.
i miss my mutalib sayang, oh come give baby a big hug!
wonder when can see him.
ohh, quan call me princess=.=
off now, gotta go dance my morning away
Monday, October 27, 2008
10:38 PM
[edited]
was planning with my bitch last night where to go on the 10th.
(its my 5th stick of the day;now)
well, well... continue...
suggestions by me:
sentosa- bikinis and sundress with a lovely bitch
(drown me please?)
botanical garden- picnic
(it's so far away, got no idea how to get there)
zoo- (idk what we can do there?camwhore?)
so since my bitch say she's fat and had no plan to put on a bikini,
we shall head to the zoo(:
finally, not shopping anymore, i'm fucking broke.
=.= but plans to go get a sandal tmr, and a bag perhaps.
somebody please buy me a RL bag? the gold one?
$90+++, :(
puhhhhhlease?
LOL.
tata, earthlings
9:58 PM
things so going wrong-
i didn't manage to wake up to go for the bloody conquer o.
tired sey~ yesterday was so worst, for work=.=
and those fucked up people who orders and don't bother
to finish it up. afterall, i still manage to joke around(:
and receive smiles from customers!
my pathetic brother came to picked me up, he was
fucking force to do so(pathetic!)
received a message from streetwave this morning,
apparently i've sent my CV for the post (sales promoter)
and i've to go down for interview this saturday, at 10am.
goodness sake, i've already got a job.
(i dont bloody know what to do)
well well, chatting with sakhai now. we're both too lazy
to go to school for the bloody conquer o(although school
is just a small road away from my home)
(: wansuey brother!
anyway, i've forgotten to say was talking to ahpig the other day.
he said he don't like me now, caus i've changed to my original self.
_!_ i don't give a damn uh brother.
i only know, you got problem, i sure go down(:
wansuey!
LOL. not forgetting my xuaniie uh. anybody touch her come try me
first uh, pcb. (sorry sis, that day at supermarket i not there)
wansuey!
sometimes, i really wonder is this the kind of life, i wanted?
for all these people, there for me thick & thin. thankyou uh.
i'm very blessed i guess?
i still remember ahgirl, when i ran away from home 3 years ago,
she took me in for 4 days(: we eat together, sleep together,
run together. i never forget this, then we got to fight each other.
i never knew this would happen, somehow we're still sisters again.
i guess, fighting really strengthen bonds (:
i fought with so many people, now we're good friends.
girls: ahgirl, xuaniie, huilian, jialin(:
guys: bangxuan,joshua(ahzhu), arthur & many more..
i treaure brother & sister hood.
during this period of time, i remember being so rude and unrespectful.
but i was very lucky they didn't really scream my heads off.
i saw how people indulge in drugs before my very own eye.
ice, ketamine, gum, ecstacy whatever lah, except for subutex.
LOL, im so glad i resisted. and i fucking regret going near them:(
especially ice, they left me with things i've to grow with.
those idk what you call them behind my back=.=
o.o enough of scaring people with my true life story.
yesterday, thunder & lightning struck so fiercely seyy.
thankfully arthur msged me;
he knew i'll be so terrified, he's here to comfort. he said,
even if the sky drop he as my best friend shall be my blanket and
cover me(:
(although, i wished so much the msg to be from someone else)
i just tried the whiskey i had at home, COOOOOOL!
i love it, i love it! better than the last time i tried at pinky's place.
i think it's nice but not as strong as martell luh.
i'm so excited for xuaniie to get her new house.
i'll go get some free drinks anytime i wanted to=.=
want try the one she bid for 347$ , our blk number.
whooooooo! BATOK 347 WANSUEY!
long time no say this, ever since carebear inside lo.
not as lively not as united as before.
i promised i'll wait for him, i promised.
if you're my friend, please fucking don't touch drug.
(: you wouldn't want to regret.
to arthur:
it's your first day of work today! please please,
do not get caught. and remember what i said,
the money is good but if you've made enough please leave.
have a life, have a brain of yours.
happy working though!
may god bless you.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
11:25 PM
if we're given a chance, perhaps we won't fall in love.
we wouldn't give love an excuse to make a fool out of us.
what's more hasn't we gave or receive?
let be lost in our memory, drown myself in you.
you're just so far, like a distant star(:
my eating disorder is getting from worst to worser.
my hair starts to drop more than just a couple,
the sickening amino acids is burning a hole in my stomach.
>:( hmmmptf. i've no moolahs, bought another pack today.
2 days once, thats like idk what.
i've to save, save and save. somebody please put a note on my head
so i wouldn't forget. i'll be going out with baobei in 2 weeks time.
if i fucking don't save, i'm going to die =(
am watching forbidden kingdom now.
and oh, we haven watch that darn HSM3 .
it's holiday today, i dreads going to work.
soembody please kill me?
9:33 PM
:) yesterday at work, was i think the only day that's
worth them paying me. was busy, learnt new things and yadayada.
after work went to buy raid's advance birthday present,
thus meeting him tomorrow to pass him everything :D
good now, i don't know who i'm going to do this with.
everything's so over.
oh i didn't get to drink yesterday, i realised if you drink with an
empty stomach you'll tend to vomit.
& i havent tried that whiskey so i don't know if that works for me.
somebody, please save me?
Saturday, October 25, 2008
11:24 PM
afterall, it's not about just you & me (:
*give me some time to edit the necessary of my blogskin
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well, i'm not sure how i'm going to do this.
i'm not sure, how i want to live my life.
if i ever ever ever going to pursue all my interest,
i swear i'll end up somewhere unpleasant.
THE LIST :
1) re-pierce my lip -should i?
2)to do a half back piece:) -it's sinful, & exp beb!
3)go shopping like nobody's business -i've no moolahs on me
4)find a NEW part time boyfriend -NO, i'm happy the way i am now
5)go sun-tanning w/o being tanned -got such thing meh?
6)gain 5kg -no appetite
7)go clubbing -UNDERAGE
8)kiss my bitches -RAYDIN CAN'T MAKE IT ON THE 10
9)to fight with someone -o.o, any volunteer?
10)tell mummy "iloveyou" -nonono, bad choice
all those things, i wanted to do with all the rest of the
protestion=.=
i was thinking of piercing when i looked into the mirror,
and saw my piercing mark still there:( regret taking it out.
uh, shit. then i thought of this tattoo i once dreamt of having.
a phoenix with the wing almost flapping, ready to fly :(
it's a sin lei, but i like~ if i know when im dying, i'll get it
1 day before i die=] i'll have no regrets then.
the rest uh, lazy want to explain.
anyway found out that beach dress or whatever is actually called
"sun dress". very pretty indeed, sheer romance has promotion:)
(i guess?)
i can't find my photos :( fuck the computer _!_
dumb fuck !
ish ish, everytime i walked home from work (pass 2 days),
i saw firdaus & clique. LOL.
i'm walking home alone today, hope i don't bumped onto them.
i don't know what i should say anymore.
i think my pay is pathetic, after buying bby's present,
im left with no moolahs. luckily is daily pay, so i still can buy my
ciggies tomorrow, if not i swear i'll die miserably.
i think my blog song is so saddening=.=
can somebody please like introduce a song which can makes you dance?
oh, i dont bother asking those around me, they're as sad as i am.
nevermind,
now, i see no point of being a gangster.
i used to detest them, i still do now.
"the more backing you have, the more hum ji you are"- ahzhu
phrase above from ahzhu.
i dont want people saying im "sumchuan po".
(AST GIRL)
i don't like people asking "eh, you where wan uh?"
i see no point in practising gangsterism.
definitely, there's a good and bad point.
if you know where you are, where you wanna stand definitely,
you're smart enough.
i'm very fortunate to leave without anything happening to me.
i wonder how it feels to be someone's wife :)
i bet i'll be a runaway bride in the future, im sure!
i know im very random =.=
anyway, my eating disorder is getting form bad to worse.
i do not know why.
i dont even feel like eating when im hungry.
the sight of food, turns me off.
but i still can drink water :]
hey, can somebody please sponsor me a bailey or a martell or a vodka pear?
:)i've this whiskey here at home, i think if i drink neat,
sure can last 2 days (slowly drink uh)
ohoh, i don't like drink mixture. well, it depends uh.
too bad xuaniie's pregnant uh, sis ?
if not can jio her come out drink, if not they sure kill me*
hey, i'm thinking of getting my naval pierce=p
i know my god-daddy sure bring me go pierce,
but i swear i'll have to get tortured by his never-ending nags
i shall end here, i'm going off to work in 2hrs 15mins time:)
when busu's home, perhaps we could start drinking.
cheers oi!
9:14 PM
well, i shall not stress myself about relationships:D
i think i need a great shopping spree, im going out with
my bitches on the 10th of november(my off day)
wonder where will be going, or perhaps raydin's not going.
i want to go to the beach! i want to tan myself, i want to
wear my long-long-no-touch bikini, sumwhere hiding
in my drawer :) shall i wear the brown or the blue one?
i think i shall wear the blue one, it's a gift from mummy though
from fox ladies ~
and it's the most expensive that i own $60.00+.
if raydin's going then we shall just go shopping!
wheeeee, i need to get myself a sandal, i need to get myself a
summer dress(beach dress) or whatever you call it.
i need to get myself a huge bag(beach bag).
i'm so obsessed with beach, it's so long since i've went to (tan)
at a beach.
i need to go out and socialise with people of my kind:)
o.o and im running out of money fast 1 pack of MM 2 days,
it's already like more 3/4 of my salary :(
=.= i need to seriously go to a buffet so i could stuff myself like a pig.
i need to go and play, o.o .
talking about play, maybe i could plan a picnic outing with my girls at
marina south or whatever you call that:D
we could go fly kite, we'll bring champagne, a picnic basket.
nonono, now i think botanical garden is more girly.
let's hope they'll whip out something yummmy.
oh, and am getting my phone back tomorrow instead :(
too much to repair.
today, we got this sick plan, to watch high school musical3.
o.o, i go for zac effron (whatever his name), sake!
ohoh, i miss drinking, somebody please please ask me out for a drink
but perhaps somewhere not so far :]
the only person i could think of is sugarhoney! but she's working:(
ohoh, i decided to go for my conquer o's class.
i know amazingly, i'll go for the sake of going.
i'll study for the sake of (not staying at home), way too boring.
it's been so long since i hit the town and take a stroll,
shopping and indulging and gossiping with my girls.
ermmmm, anybody knows where the botanical garden is?
=.=
6:41 AM
just when i thought we're over when we haven even started,
just when i thought i have to accept the fact.
as much as i've longed you to stay, god hears my prayer.
you'd changed your mind, agree to my solution.
to give it a trial, i'm very honoured:)
BBY <3
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today work, was slacking :D my new hobby!
i need to bring a book over to read i guess?
was sad at that point of time, still very nervous
(afterall it's my 2nd day of work)
no messages today though, except for bby wishing me "happy working"
caus i asked him too:X
did i mention last night, was working and 1 whole table of uncle
staring at me =.= ya, i know. they're not pervert lah,
they're all my granns friend, to look ater me so that nobody would
disturb or bully me when im working.
heard grann say they will bash up those ppl who bully me 0.o?
today, there's 2 big table, instead of 1 :(
i got so unhappy and uneasy i complained to grann.
so exaggerating call so many of her friends to watch me work
then, they only leave after i finished my work.
so, the MANAGER of the coffeeshop is so kind to help me out :D
haha, now i finally know how important it is to eat finish your food,
caus if not, you're troubling the person who collects em.
work was boring after 8pm, but today got more customer than yesterday.
i think caus i too cute already :X
well, its a fact okay? heard 1 customer said that to his friend:)
MUAHAHAHA.
well, im hungry now. i just got nagged by this pig.
shaddup pig, thank you!
bye earthlings !
i LOVE YOUUUUUUUU
1:12 AM
i thought i've saved myself, from a heartbreak.
is this part of karma and retribution?
is it me that you wanted?
is it me that you love?
i think, the way we are now is very comforting.
i seriously, think that way.
we wanted to take a step further, you pulled me down.
you said, you have to leave lest i suffer from a
serious heartbreak in the future.
is this what you want? we haven even started and we have to end it.
a week ago, we're just friend.
a day later we're buddy.
a moment ago, we're more than friend.
a minute ago, we've ended up in nowhere.
i've lost, terribly in this game call love.
has it ever occur to you, the feeling we share is love?
keeping a distance, does it work?
thank you, for your very kind intention and thoughts.
but the truth, i realise you're the reason i keep my roots upright.
hasn't it been for you, i didnt manage to breakaway.
hasn't it been for you, i'd never fall in love.
was it just those sweet-nothings?
tell me, if its me that you want.
Friday, October 24, 2008
10:15 PM
♥I'm thinking of you
in my sleepless solitude tonight
if it's wrong to love you
then my heart won't let me be right
cause I'm drowned in you
and I won't pull through
without you by my side
I'd give my all to have
just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel your body next to mine
cause I can't let go on
living in the memory of your song
I'd give my all for your love tonight
Baby can you feel me
imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
vividly emblazoned in my mind
and yet you're so far
like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight
I'd give my all to have
just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
your body next to mine
cause I can't let go on
living in the memory of your song
I'd give my all for your love tonight
I'd give my all to have
just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to have
your body next to mine
cause I can't let go on
living in the memory of your song
I'd give my all for your love tonight
give my all for your love tonight...
7:16 PM
ku cuba nyatakan rasa cintaku hati masih terus keliru
andai kau fahami isi hatiku yang benar ingin memilikimu
well, oh well. work was very boring yesterday:X
sent the wrong food to the wrong person, luckily my boss didn't scold.
was msging half the time :) it's so boring yet im in my sleeping mode.
to all those who messaged me and encourage me for my first day of
work, thank you so much! "happy working" (LOL)
i found out, i got eating disorder yesterday.
first i thought i was suffering from aneroxia. but i realise,
aneroxia is self-inflict, isn't it? so thus, i came out with the conclusion that
i used to eat whenever i'm hungry (that is every 2 hours meal)
now, when im hungry, i don't bother to eat therfore when i eat,
i don't feel like eating instead i feel like puking.
bby asked me to go see a doctor, but i don't think there's a need.
so he asked me to swallow my vomit if i have to, and force myself to eat.
yesterday at work, keep looking at the time, messaged bby but he never reply.
i told him, i've prayed very hard for his victory and safety
(may god hears my prayers)
then he messaged: "raid accident.. nie kawan dier eh?"
means bby got accident, is this his friend?
__ ya i know. i knew it was fake, i knew it was him caus he typed like this.
actually, i feel like want to scold vulgarity to whoever it is.
then i didnt, i said in mean malay, "why is that so? no, im his princess"
LOL. in the end he admit, was him. nevermind, was angry not because of
the prank, was because he didn't msg me when his race start at a later time.
then i wasted so much of my msg :(
he called me when he reached home, thngs was fine already.
he tested me this mine testing game, told me it was about "mac"
so im supposed to pronounce the word he spell .
first was "m-a-c-c-h-i-c-k-e-n"
"mac-chicken"
"m-a-c-f-l-u-r-r-y"
"mac-flurry"
"m-a-c-n-u-g-g-et"
"macnugget"
"m-a-c-h-i-n-e"
"machine"
LOL. he thought, im dumb he said i laugh as
if im so happy.so i tested him.
"n-o-n-o"
"nono"
"n-e-n-e"
"nene"
"n-o-n-e"
"no-ne"
LOL. i told him it was "NONE".
:) gave him a riddle.
clue: replace all the "IT" with a (7 letter word)
(answer at the end of the post)
IT is greater than god
IT is more evil than the devil
the rich needs IT
the poor has IT
if you eat IT, you will die
:( he gave up.
hahha. was on the way to central at night when my brother keep disturb us
talking. so bby got so frustrated.
asked bby what was he thinking when he was racing,
he said "to win, and buy me my topup card"
haha, bby was too tired, that he went to sleep early.
saw daddy, i confided in him. told him i broke up with my ex,
and told him about bby. i said :
"he will only accept me if my whole family agrees to it"
(actually was the another way round:X)
well, daddy wished him luck! & he support him okay!
daddy said :
"tell him, if he wants my daughter he better plan his future,
even if he call down 5 lorry of ppl to whack me, i won't give him
my daughter if he doesn't plan his future"
daddy meant that he wants bby to plan his future well, what he wants to do,
he have to include me in the future, and of caus take very good care
of daddy's little princess :)
right bby, right right?
well, bby has not wake up :( im bored.
last night his gdnight message was the longest he ever sent me, im
very touched [but i found out a hidden meaning]
1 part was refering to my ex, coming back to remember about the past.
:( maybe i've forgotten to let him know a piece of good news and that
my ex has given up on me, therefore he gave us his blessing:D
(answer to riddle : NOTHING)
"setahun sudah ku menunggu dirimu.
akhirnya kau menjadi miliku. tapi sayang ke hadiran kekasih
lama mu datang kembali mengenang cinta dahulu.
mengapa ini semua harus berlaku.
apakah ini semua kerana diriku. sedangkan aku cuma watak
dalam percintaan. tak sanggup aku melepaskan mu.
selamat malam putri ku. engkau la satu satu putri yang ku sayang
dan cinta"
-bbyku <3
Labels: bbyku tersayang
Thursday, October 23, 2008
11:51 PM
i've deleted 1 of the post of you ever ever know.
caus i think it's very hurting.
furthermore, ARTHUR had sorted out his thinking
thanks to KERIN. yes, i'm very proud of him now.
at least, he won't have to die. see,i gain a best friend:D
even, if we cannot be couple, it's as good as being best friend.
furthermore we get to keep in contact, still chat and even
meet-up. stay strong, may god bless you.
thank you for sorting out your thinking and giving your
blessing for me & him .
thank you!~
10:34 PM
Pertemuan yang tiada terduga
kini kita saling bermesra
masa berganti hati diubati
mekarnya cinta mula dirasai
BBY KU, KAU INGIN KU MILIKI :D
i just bathed, was msging with bby halfway when he went missing.
to think he went to eat & bath without telling me :D
got so worried, keep messaging and calling him.
he got a race today, hope he'll win safely(although i didn't tell him).
hahaha. he said he have to go, if not then how will he have the
money to top up for me. i don't want to end up with a broken hand or leg:X
so i'll pray very hard, right bby?
chatted on the phone with bby, my heart almost leaped out.
first time talking in malay okay?(in th phone with bby)
haha, then i keep saying he "BLUFF".
he say my topup card is my duit raye :)
oh nevermind, he's off to lavender with his friend. then we message.
told him, i'll be getting back my phone tmr, then will put his picture
as my wallpaper.LOL. he told me he already put as wallpaper.
his friend saw and say "i'm cute". =.=
bby told them i'm his putri cause he scared lest they steal me away from him.
i thought he purposely show his friend, then he say in malay..
he put my picture as wallpaper, if they cant see means they're blind.
:XX well, bby is too busy to entertain me, so im here blogging.
bby likes my blogskin, did it for him okay?
take up so much of my time:X well, since bby steal lyrics for
my gdnite msg, so did i :) i'm his copy-meow.
people think it's a good thing if im with him:p
caus, i get to learn MALAY & well many other things.
well well, i'm so looking forward to next year hari raya to celebrate with him.
HAHAHAHA. then i get duit raya from him again:X
LOL.
bby, i sayangkan u byk2 sey.
klau pape pun terjadi kepada u, i tetap akan
jage u sampai dunia kiamat:D
8:05 AM
im darn pissed off with the way you conduct yourself when
im gone, i dont want to be reminded of the past.
i dont want to know what i said or what i've done.
i had enough, i thought you will let me off:(
for heaven sake, i think its very silly if you want to end your life.
you're not any teenager you're 18 years old.
you get to do what you want already, furthermore there's so many
girls out there. open your eyes big.
i already persuade you nicely, i told you what i wanted.
since you cant do all that in the past, why do you think i believe
you can do it in the future.i already told you, i do not have any hard
feelings for you neither do i lied to myself.
so thank you, if you want to die for me. i m very honoured.
but i can tell you i TOTALLY despise you, someone with no
mindset neither with any feelings for his loved ones.
i do not bother how many people you want them to scream the head
off me, but please do not always think of the bad side or the good side only.
i want to declare, i do not have any love for you.
this post is not to hurt you but just to let you know, and let the world
be my witness. i cant believe you're so selfish to want me back,
even though you know that i wont be happy even though you know
that my heart is not with you. confident does not means anything.
since you're so willing to try why not wait for another 10 years or so?
why not be successful first then come talk to me?
stop lying to yourself, and stop telling me that im lying to myself okay!
i know what i want. i do not want a guy to change totally because of me.
fate plays a big role, i dont think fate is on our side now.
stop thinking just because my grann approved us of our relationship
so therefore she will dissaprove my next one.
even if she do, i will not give up.
and i've already told everyone since i've chosen this path, i make
sure i walk down whether im happy or unhappy in the future has
nothing to do with anyone. i do not want to be a puppet.
i do not want someone to remind me of my past.
i think everything is too late
-------------------------------------------------------------------
(psssssst.... bby top up my prepaid for me)=.=
THE MOST TOUCHEST THING EVER!
well, was telling bby that i could not msg him much caus my prepaid
so damn bloody low.
he asked if im using M1?
then i say ya,why?
LOL. next moment he send me :
"putri nye pin **16 digit number**"
i thought it was so fake or perhaps he bought for me the
5$ top up card and am so suprised it was the 18$ one.
anyway, so honoured caus im not his gf :XX
haha, i asked why and he say:
"sebab i sayang putri"
TOUCHING LAH SEYYYY!
:) i syg bby too!
12:05 AM
the future is all about you & me
had a long long time chatting with busu & bby ku:)
although, i prayed hard bby get promoted but he didnt.
he chose to quit school, but still take his o's next year.
i let him know, no matter whether he pass or fail,
no matter if his hands or legs are broken, i'll always be here for him.
i assured him, i don't want to go back on my words, i never will.
we talked about the meeting we're supposed to have.
we talked about his studies, we talked about the future.
we talk about how we gna face the rest :X
and how serious we are to be committed to this relationship.
we talk about next year raye, we talk about the baju kurung we gna wear:)
and definitely how much we love each other.
&& i just got his photo printed and laminated. oooooh!
the following paragraph is for bby ku:
you picked up the shattered pieces of my heart
fix them with all possible way
you bring me from darkness to light
promise to hold and never let go
im so thankful i had you, there's nothing more i could want.
for you're the one, that i want to hold on to.
Someone to have and hold
with all my heart and soul
I need to know before I fall in love
someone who'll stay around
through all my up's and down's
Please tell me now before I fall in love
please give me a reason to believe
say you're the one
that you'll always be
(bby said: i'm the one) =.=
the following paragraph is for ena:
ena, my pretty lady sister:)
for all you've overcome, i've admired you for your courage
you're brave sis, but whatever that is happening.
you must know i'm always here for you.
i'm just a phone call away.
whenever you need someone to talk to or a huge hug,
you can always come to my house!
my house door is forever open for you.
(unless, i go out luh)
i love you sister!
:)
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
9:30 AM
well, i couldn't get to sleep caus bby has not send in my
dose of "poems" (: its sort of a poem to me.
but, sadly he stole it from some lyrics. and oh!, it's in malay
so i get so excited to know the meaning so at the end of the day,
i will at least learn 2 new malay words.
it's been 3 days now, and i've been typing malay in all the texts.
i'm proud of myself, i guess he's proud of me too!
i told my granny about the broke up in the afternoon.
so as usual everyone suspected i got a new bf (yada-yada).
so there's this rule in my house that i either go out with girls or
only my boyfriend:( thus, i need to bring him home
you know like the (meet-the-in-laws) kind of thing.
im so not excited always dreads this day and it's the second time of my life.
basically, my granny is bias against malay guys while daddy is bias
against chinese guys, so im stuck in between=.=
well, bby said he likes my daddy (when he haven even see him yet)
so deep down i already expect the fierce kind of meeting.
[poor bby]
but something im proud of bby's not that mat rep type:)
wheeeeeeee~ the meeting is gna be in like 2 weeks time perhaps
i'll be bringing over the meeting on next sunday instead so we
can go out on the monday(my off day).
well, im so glad me & arthur are still friends:)
he never fails to msg me like ever(thank you so much).
i really had appreciate all these msges.
anyway back to bby, his sweet msges altho short but never fails
to bake a smile out of me, thank you.
he was there in my lowest point, was there to know so much about me:)
and most importantly, i never had anyone calling me "puteri".
i'm very very very honoured.
i wonder how suprising it was to fall back in love with a primary schoolmate.
it has never cross my mind before.
i do not expect much from this relationship. even if we don't work out well,
i guess we'll be very happy to stay this way.
for now, i'm living off his sweet messages. every morning, every afternoon,
every evening, every night and particularly almost every part of the day.
(oh! & bby i hate the waiting part for your msges)
=.= whatever, but in the end i still get satisfied replies.
thank you for particularly include my name in that poem or whatever:)
it makes my day! (although it was sent at night)
& you know bby im always re-reading your msges while waiting for some more.
ooooh! im so proud of new art pieces(not really art).
just editing of bby's photo okay! wheeeeeee~
anyway, am going to wait for bby msg (doubt he will msg)=.=
but i don't think he's heartless like this, prolly he had forgotten
about his stupid little princess, waiting like an imbecile delinquent.
nvm:( i shall wait! o.o talked to him on the phone like 3 days ago.
i miss his voice okay! yes okay!
i guess am on sleeping mode now.
so i prolly had crapped yadas on this post since it's like 12.55am
already in the wee of the night.
goodnight to all earthlings!
*salutations*
6:45 AM
cam bby, you suke tak?
:) came online just to edit this extra photo
for my bby! he said he'll be viewing my blog tmr oi!
okiey lah, off to watch teeeveeeeeeeee~
goodbye, earthlings!
4:13 AM
hello, earthlings :) it's been a long time since i last blog.
due to emotional stress and problems. do not expect anyone
to read my blog also, caus its darn boring.
anyway, i've broke up with my boyfriend(ex).
after 6 months of struggling, i finally did this without shedding a tear.
i'm very proud of myself for being so brave to resolve all the problems.
for those who am going to bloddy scream my heads off me for making
this decision, you're welcome to come an try.
for i have chosen this path therefore im not going to regret no matter what
happens in the future.
i have things to declare to this world:
1.) i do not have a boyfriend at this moment
(whether i do in the future has nothing to do with anyone else)
2.) stop pointing fingers without getting your facts right
3.) if you bloddy gonna scream at me please, take a look at all the facts
4.) if you think i've made the wrong decision and you want to leacture
(please save your breath)
5.) this decision is made solely by me and only me
6.) if there's any other consequences i should take,
(come and look for me)
7.) please do not start nagging at me
(im not a small kid)
8.) i have the right not to explain to anybody i thought it's not important
finally, im so done with all these. am not getting into a relationship right now.
but currently am together with this guy:) im happy the way we are.
i really am very grateful to this special person, ( i shall not elaborate)
[till then, until the next post if you wanna know more a bout him]
goodbye fellas
i heard you say you wanna leave,
i saw you walking towards the door with tears
in your eyes,
i know i had to this as much as i dont want to.
i hope, you dont cling onto the past:)
imissyou,
Sunday, October 19, 2008
4:48 AM
i desperately need to get a break from blogging,
thank you so much eh.
:( shall not say anyth else, tata
Friday, October 17, 2008
1:22 AM
;( i am now officially using the on-screen keybard as my
lousy & pathetic keyboard is spoilt. so i shall spend my day clicking
away. ad it is oh-so-not-convenient at the very least.
guess, its a hint to have to spend moolahs buying a new one.
=.= so i've lost interest in blogging.
p.s: i saw daoqian(schoolmate) n sgclub.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
3:16 AM
i take half a day to edit my blogskin :)
i love it so much, just change the pictures and the neccessary.
mmmphs, i doubt, bebe did view the message i typed for him.
anyway, shall not be bothered to talk about my day caus everything
went so wrong, and im so so drown in my thinkings and my reverie.
oh well, shall take a rest now.
toodles!
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
7:54 PM
anyway, blogger is so sickening :( my previous blogskin enable me
to see my post when i view my blog while others can.
so i will have to change to this oh-i-don't-like blogskin.
secondly, my oh-so-sickening teacher called today :(
so i will hafto go to school tomorrow for goodness sake and to check
my papers, so fantastic :(
i know, i've so many >:(
well, i wish i can grow up faster. so i wont have to go to school.
anyway, i've so much to complaint now.
and the resolution, "sgclub".
wheeeeee~ been so active cans?
nevermind, this post is about boredom.
uh, tata
Monday, October 13, 2008
8:00 PM
to: my dearest KING ARTHUR (LOL!)
happy 1 year 4 month- sary
my dearest KING ARTHUR, for all these while you've stood by me.
the highest to the lowest to the thickest and the thinnest,
you stood by me all.
for all the mistakes i've made, you only expect a "sorry" and you'll
forgive me. for all the faults i've been blamed, you said:
"hey baby, i'll take all the fault for you. even if the sky drop, bebe
will cover it for you. don't worry i'm fine"
for all the complaints i've made, you'll just pull me and give me a kiss and
say "it's fine now, baby".
for the moment, we thought of letting go, i'm glad we didn't.
i'm glad we holded on, for we've learnt the language of love.
all these obstacle we went thru together, it was never easy.
i'm glad you were there, when i'm in my dire street, you took me in.
when we were in the lowest point, we shared almost everything-
money, cigg, sweater, bed, towel even toothbrush:)
all the little little things you've done for me, still there, in my mind.
you pat me to sleep everyday when i stayed over, you made
sure i was asleep before you go to sleep. you never fails to wake up in
the night to check on me, even if in the middle of the night, you would bring me to
the bathroom :) when i was staying there, you sacrifised your sleep,
to send me down to the bus stop in the early morning before i go to school.
waited for me to safely board the bus before going home.
all these, are precious to me.
you always lack of sleep whenever i sleep over.
caus i would wake up early, then you will hafto wake up to.
those moment when i snuggle in the comforter with you, the
"good morning baby," rings in my head.
the times, you carried me to and fro st. george, caus i need to nap.
the times, i refused to eat until much cajoling.
the times, i threw tantrum(always), you tolerate it, talked nicley to me,
cajole me, pat me and kiss me on the forehead.
all i wanted to say was, thanks baby.
i didn't get to msg you and tell you all this caus i couldn't find a phone.
and amazingly, now we thinks alike :
everybody thought we're so compatible. thank you a lot, bebe.
thank you, for doing everything for me.
i'll always be here for you, and you'll always be there for me:)
i love you,
your dearest,
Queen Aina
5:39 AM
okay, well im not so far from my dream only that i wants to
be a wedding planner but instead am a dating planner:)
helped darwin(ex-schoolmate) to plan a date with his crush or
something like that, took me 30 mins can?
getting to know her better what she likes, and stuff~
anyway hope the both of them will enjoy their day and may
cupid struck them. good thing, what a good deed i've done.
(self praise) well, i just changed my blog song.
am chatting with darwin, about relationship and stuff. hope he dont make
the wrong move and regret. anyway, i still think my boyf is the best:D
i am not going to school tomorrow, wheeeeeeeeeeee~ i dont know
what to do at home, not meeting bebe not going to school,
not going out, not working. fine, i'll go make mok's present.
her birthday is 2 days away. ima make a bouquet of lollipop roses :)
o.o and i've been an active sgclub member hoho. i love you babeyyyy!
5:02 AM
1 more day honey..
baby, you're the sweetest thing that happened in my life.
together we make things work.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
9:31 PM
:D bebe went to book for his car license, hopefull after all the
neccesary procedures and all the test, he would pass.
caus his daddy was urging him to go and take his car license, yesterday.
i guess it should not take long perhaps like... 3-6 months?
bebe said after he pass, he going to get a (cheap) car first while saving up.
good thing, since we've so much more to save up for~
we've already so much plan for the future but none for the near future=.=
am still looking forward to next week's stayover ~
wheee, and 1 more day to go honey! it's our grand 1 year 4th month.
although, we dont plan to celebrate it til later and all, im still so happy
we could go this far. nevermind, shall save the message for tmr :)
shall bring ashton over next week caus we all missed him.
today is boring, school tomorrow. shag ,
how i wish holiday is next week but due to the stupid conquer "o" LOL
then we have to go to school 2 weeks more =.=
doubt im going :( anyway, now bebe has also began to dislike "HER".
don't like , don't like, don't like:(
6:33 AM
2 more days darling ...
i'm so glad we came this far, so far we couldnt give up
for we promised each other a lifetime happiness
to hold on to cherish for eternity
i'm happy i've got you
5:41 AM
:) hello earthlings, im back!!
okay, my 3 day stay was a very very very very nice one!
added up by bebe's & family very very very small actions, makes my day!
#first day
reached boon keng around 3 plus. went up to his home to put my belongings,
then we walked down to eat our lunch (macdonald), as usual.
we went home caus he was supposed to do his fair share of house work,
which he didnt.(to skip and come pick me up)
good, so he was telling me that we're going over pinky korkor's place,
to celebrate his birthday and yada-yada.
with much convince, he decided not to go.
so while he was mopping the floor, and me lying on his sofa watching
MTV, he keep asked me where we wanna go to just walk around and whatever not.
dont have any idea, like either he say a place, i protest or otherwise.
=.= so we decided to stay home and save the penny instead.
around evening went down to buy foods for his dearest sister and mother.
he was telling me that we could go play mahjong with his sister after we eat
since i dont want to go over to pinky's place(wasn't feeling well then).
then, after eating, he convince me to go over to pinky's place caus i was
feeling better and it's his birthday. summore, bebe cycles there and they're
going to drink by the pool and whatever not.
so, i accompanied him:) (what a good gf am i?) LOL.
we meet them at near st. george's 7 eleven. guess who we saw?
chen jian bing or whatever his name. frederick was like "where where where?"
LOL. so lame, then they walk while bebe cycles there.
when reached we pour everyone's cup with the liquor and a mixture
of coke. first round, my cup no liquor. cause i havent know how to play -up down.
then realise was so easy after they demonstrate but they explain that time
so confusing. haha.
play play until fredrick drunk=.= lol. bebe vomitted.
caus they keep get double. then they have to drink 1/2 - 1 cup at one shot.
last few round bebe not feeling well, so i help him drink.
luckily i can just drink 1 mouth:)
but seriously the smell :( very disgusting.
then, kor and fredrick go swim. then i keep throw ice & water at them,
then they thought i drunk =.= LOL
caus i keep laughing also. eh, hello xiaodidi when i started drinking you still
in school with your high pants lei. summore, i dont drink mixture i drink neat.
(also never drunk =.=) this was the 2nd time i drink mixture.
anyway, keep laughing at them and see how drunk they are plus laughs
because they thought im drunk.
anyway, we promised bebe's mummy to be home at a certain time therefore,
we left earlier :) cycled home, and off to sleep ~
#2nd day
promised buchuk to go jalan raye with her and her colleagues.
was late though because bebe gotta wait for his mummy to come home
and take money. anyway, was so boring. only 1 house is nice,
with the very nice kitchen:D bebe was with me. we only went 4 house
then we left to go home and change and meet ah hao at marina.
was so rushing cans? with all my makeups and stuff.
and we only got duit raye from 1 person :(
but he gave us 5$ each. not bad luh, cause everyone else thought im 17
=.=
now good, i look older than i am.
after meet ah hao and yada-yada.. he needs to leave for his movie
with his friend. bebe and i are so hungry then.
i've no more energy to stand, the air conditioner was killing me.
my feets are so pain from the outing because of my heel.
we couldnt decide what to eat. we went to the food court,
i settled for korean food and bebe's japanese food set.
first time ever i ate something new (to me lah) and their rice.
i dont like it at first, but after i tried it, its very very very sweet and fragrant.
and the bbq beef hotplate =.= enough for 2. too bad bebe dont eat beef,
caus i couldnt finish it up. i swear. first time see people put so much beef.
i keep eat and eat but it doesnt seems like it's lesser.
after that, heart to heart talk :D with bebe at the smoking area.
they have very nice view of tall buildings, hotels and the flyer:)
including esplanade, which looks like little little stars at night.
was exhausted and it began to drizzle. im freezing and shivering in MS.
so, we headed home instead of waiting for the rest.
thought would go to sleep immediately, unfortunately not.
we played mahjong with his sister. bebe was such a poor thing,
he set up everything, and he even have to take water for me, and since
his sister wants it too:) i was so happy, i could feel like his little
little doings are because he loves me. he's more tired than me,
but he still did it nonetheless. we played for 1/2 an hour only when he keeps
everything:( poor him,
then, he put me to sleep. i couldnt go to sleep caus i need the bathroom
and was afraid and lazy to go. so bebe carry me up, and accompanied me.
so sweet of him :) how fortunate am i?
=.= then he puts me to sleep.
(psssst... he always wakes up in the night to check if im sleeping
comfortably and if my mp3 is kept and to see me sleep)
#3rd day
my last day there, woke up around 10+-11
watched mtv, then he switched to soccer, then i switched then him.
LOL. was waiting for his parents and sister to come back from
praying then we heads off to the farm :0
never went to a farm before though.
skip skip~
we reached the farm, had this weird smell anyway.
saw people catching prawn. i think it's a waste of money though.
because its so small, so crowded. and although the water is dirty,
you can actually see inside if you focus, that not much prawn there is.
(anyway, i didnt saw any)
unlike the bishan one, much better :)
so we went on to visit, tortoise, rabbit, hamster, guinea pig, goat, frog,
fish, parrot. guess what i saw?
(hamsters fighting for carrot)
well, i and his sister was shocked okay! we never knew hamsters eats carrot.
was upset caus bebe dont want me to feed them( you have to buy the food).
in the end, after much persuading and throwing of tantrum, bebe
allowed me to:) he asked what animal i want to feed when i say "TORTOISE!"
wheeeee~ nobody there feed the tortoise and frog :(
they feed everything else.
they thought i missed ashton, ( i do okay! i didnt bring him over the weekend)
so bought, when i throw in the water , they dont want eat.
when 1 wants to eat the rest fight . lol.
bebe said i looks cute when i feed the tortoise=.= but i really never regret can?
he asked why i dont want to feed other animal.
so had dinner there, then went back home to pick up my things and to
head of to home:(
lol, bebe told me that at 1 part, when his mother wanted to say about me
she said im his laopo instead of gf then she change to say im his gf.
haha, LOL. bebe said he going to go take car license :) happy for him!
got scolded when reached home, caus we're late for more than 15mins :(
but nevermind, i still enjoy my stay ! another 2 more weeks to my
stayover again. bebe dont miss me too much alright?
back home, this means no more bebe to pat me to sleep, bring water
for me, no more this and that :(
i love you, darling!
thank you for the lovely weekend :)
Thursday, October 9, 2008
11:33 PM
okay, 1 last post before im off to bebe's place.
so i wont be blogging till sunday or maybe monday.
was busy scolding raid(ex-schoolmate) for mixing up the dates
for us to jalan raye. yes, then we confirmed.
so i tried very very hard to contact deary(iqa) but cant :(
hahah! anyway i guess we got some sort of telepathy or whatever
you call that, she just texted me!
wheeeeeee~
am so happy right now, i dont think bebe had plans for later.
so, shall just expect tmr to be a sore-aching-leg day.
with my 5 inch high heels, great !
now, im so so so so so poor. caus am lending grann my mooolahs..
so, i'm left with less than 50$ to survive for the weekend.
great, budgggggggggget day!
was looking forward to go and buy a story book, now?
wooosh! just daydreaming..
nevertheless, am happy enough to be able to go over to bebe's place.
that means more fun and laughter and fights(pillow fights).
what a spectacular weekend to look for:)
tummy's so so so cramp and hurting.
usual, period stuff :(o.o and heard from xinyi said eat chocolate
would lessen the pain. tried once, it works a little.
okay till here then, goodbye people!
6:17 PM
okay, i've yet to confirm my stay at bebe's place today :(
whatever it is, tomorrow im going to go jalan raye with buchuk,
bebe & her colleagues. so, no matter whether im staying home or
going over to bebe's place, i must still make an effort to go.
how lovely, is buchuk to invite me :)
whatever, yesterday am thinking of blog-hopping when it turns
to blog-window-shopping. great, so i told bebe tat if couldnt find a
suitable guess bag then we would have to settle for Victoria Secret.
let me share with you, one of the Victoria Secret bag that i fancy for now.
(the one above), well was intending to get a hobo bag, much more convenient.
:) due to my plan of buying a phone, well our holiday trip to KL, have to be
postponed to next year :( ya, caus if not then i would have to spend my own money.
hmmm, there goes the big mega sale. what a bad timing!
anyway am going to go sleep back now, have been awake since 7+am.
i've need to go pack my bags and clean the house later.
goodbye!
3:17 AM
what a day for a THURSSSSSSSDAY :(
had endless of disruption when am trying to get some sleep.
or maybe, i slept for too long.
well, nevertheless im excited. prolly, i'll get to go to bebe's place tomorrow.
as usual, we had not plans, i'm lazy to plan one, while bebe never plans.
great what a 2 and a half day we'll be having.
can somebody tell me anywhere in town having a mega sale?
o.o , chatted with bebe yesterday :) was so happy he'll reward me for this year.
okay, he said he'll get me either a guess bag or wallet.
mostly, a bag ! good thing, so i've just have to wait til buchuk gets me
my OMNIA I900 by end of this year (december).
till then, she said perhaps there might even be a better phone i will fancy.
hmmmm, i dont think so. i dont know.
fine, yesterday night was having a chat with my ex-schoolmate.
LOL. he wanted to know what womens want, or should i say lady.
good, he asked " are you hot or cool?"
i said " i dont know, what you mean? personality?"
then he said "just answer the question women"
LOL. then i say "what about you?"
he said "cool" then i said "cool"
he says " I THINK YOU'RE HOT"
=.= great, what a compliment,
well well darwin let's pray hard you dont get caught, flinging around with
2 best friend uh, :)
and please, dont come asking me for advice.
aiyos,
anyway, i've ordered a few stuffs from avon, i dont know what i ordered=.=
good, now i shall wait and see if my stuffs arrived :)
bet i'll finish them by december. whatever, need to save and get my M.A.C
my trusted brand.
1 secret : M.A.C have nice blusher colour, they're not too think, nor are they
shiny with little little glitters, get one !
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
5:15 AM
okay, i've got no school tomorrow. i dont want to bother people,
to chat, i dont feel like talking, how i wish i was mute.
i got nothing to do, i dont want to get off the com, i dont want to go
to sleep, i want to go shopping, i want to read nice nice storybook,
i wants to sing til my throat soars, i want to dance til my bone breaks,
i want to shop until the shop close down( HAHA! NOT FUNNY), i want
to sleep forever, i want to fly, i want to eat chocolate fudge cum brownie,
i want to go to ben and jerrys now, i want to eat until i'm fat like the DHL balloon,
i want to doodle, i want to paint the world, i want to be the princess,
i want to eat choclate every sec, i want to bang my head on the wall,
i want to feel how its like to jump down the building, i want to type endlessly,
i want to drink qoo white grape, i want to go to arcade, i want to see how
scary a ghost is(maybe not), i want to punch monster until his teeth drops,
i want to slay dinosaur, i want to make history, i want to grow fat,
i want to buy a house in pulau ubin(LOL), i want to own a dog,
i want all mothers in the world to be fathers, i want all fatties in the world
to be respected not teased, i want to let everyone know i love fatties,
i want to kill those mofos who kills animal, i want to be a vegetarian-not,
i want to muthafucking kills the one who creates exams(i think his dead),
i want to fly to egypt, i want to see how fake pyramids are, i want to smash
sushi on my computer, i want to make all pets drink coke, i want to crash the clock,
i want to clog the pipes, i want all humans to travel by hot-air-balloon.
okay, im tired. pardon my randomness, i've long not been this insane.
you see, why boredom is a bad thing. *NO OFFENCES OKAY!
3:45 AM
lets stride downtown and fill our bags and throw the cash :)
finally, the last paper for our class :)
everyone was going woohhooooo! some congratulate themselves
upon declaring self-holiday and bade goodbyes to the rest and say;
"see you next year!"
glad, these people do really have positive mindsets.
everyone was so shag and tensed up for the whole year especially
the end of year examinations. wellwell, now it's over dont everyone
deserve a very good relaxing break? yes, definitely everyone's holiday-mood
is filling their mind, some were even lost in them with lots of upcoming plan.
anyway, it's time i reward myself for the hard work i've done.
regardless i pass or fail or did not do my best or whatever, i shall use this as
an excuse to reward myself, as usual :) only i would do this to myself:(
noone else rewards me, no psp no hp no mp3.
nevermind, today while walking to meet bebe, #ena sweetheart was with me:)
then she reminded me of someone, this classmate we had.
although we just saw the surface of her life, we admit we're envious of her okay.
her life was like she's living in a world of her own, even if she had got nobody
she wouldnt mind or care, she almost all the things she wanted on earth.
and she lived, for herself.
we reminisce and think a lot, we voiced out. made a conclusion.
here it goes (take no offences) :
all these people around us, they're all fakes.
secondary school, is much more faker than primary school.
everything in primary school was purely innocent, so blissful.
in secondary school, you can see cases that you never never thought
would happen(unless you saw em' on teevee).
anyway, students were growing up, you saw all your classmates grow.
the sweetest memories makes you smile, the saddest memory make you cry.
sometime, you even felt cheated.
the best part was it's too tiring to catch up with all these people,
to envy them, to care for them, to be there.
at this time, you will reflect on your life. how stupid you used to be.
how easy life was last time, how hard it was now.
--------end of it----------
today i learnt something, something very very sad to me :(
nevermind, to think it'll be this sad if you were deprived from studying
or even to further your studies. its okay.
i believe there's always a blessing in disguise.
god bless everyone.
goodbye world,
i'll pray the best for my closest ones.
<3
Monday, October 6, 2008
11:26 PM
i wanted to be miss independent, mummy said i need to be.
had a big big tiff with bebe for the very past few days.
was an upcoming expecting one tho, for both of us.
its about time, spending more quality time together.
yes, it's a 1 year over more relationship. i've been given exactly,
a week to think things over while we're still together.
it's either sacrifsing or giving up this relationship.
at that very time, i wished mummy could call and tell me what to do.
i've been so left out, i've been so stressed up.
i've no time to find a new hobby like i used to, i've no time to join
classes, no time to plan for my future. life is like a river flow.
i dont want to go with the flow and say "hey, lets see whats next before
deciding" , and yada-yada. my education deproved, my financial not
managed, i've been spending much and i dont know what i spent on.
i feels like suicide is the best way, but i gave my word to mummy.
currently, listening to daddy's favourite song.
never did i listen to oldies or rock or (idontknow what you call em)
my parents gets me addicted and those songs just keep playing
and playing, got your tears rolling down your cheeks.
i dont find these songs outdated, they're very nice and unique.
stairway to heaven, used to listen to it with daddy on his mp3:)
and he'll sing it to me , how nice was that.
i've sort out my memories, keep them aside deep down in my heart.
it's one bad thing if you dont know how to deal with all this.
those who're closer to me, knew i've many problems with my family.
but, they mean more to me than anything.
i regretted those heated arguments i had between me and both my parent.
i'm very very thankful they're all understanding.
i used to scream at them(seperately) how much rights they do not have
to scream and yell and say about anything i bought, cause i used my own money to.
thats one thing they're proud of me though, i never actually claimed from them.
most of all my things i bought em. so, yet.. im still not independent enough.
well, nevermind.
i've been offered a job, to work for this japanese stall in a coffeeshop.
LOL. 1000$ a month. no off =.= 12-9pm.
great, i dont know how long i can endure.
but, i need the moolahs to buy my things and satisfy myself :(
im a low-esteem person. need to go build my own castle now,
goodbye, sayonara, tata:)
Sunday, October 5, 2008
11:52 PM
"deep down you and i know, you're the best in our heart,
give it your all, i'll love you always"- mummy
i had a suprise call not long before i start blogging.
it was mummy on the line, it's been so long. i almost forgotten
how she sounds like, memories flashed back, thru those happy short
times we had, the never fulfilling promises, the neverending laughter
and foods, those always giving in to me. all the trust the fun, the dance,
the songs, everything. i couldn't bring myself to cry.
"you're strong honey, i know you are"
her voices and quotes, live in my ears. the only source that keeps me
coming and live. she was happy to know i'm using her betsey johnson's wallet.
complained to her it's all dirties and black :(
she's my biggest influence, i idolised her, (not her bad points though)
i wonder how long has it been since she last dressed up?
i missed badly those times we work together, missed those shopping trips,
where we chose for each other not viewing the price :)
that one thing i dont have to be afraid of when im with her.
thanks to her, i have my fendi bag:)
she inspired me, her handwriting, confidence, her characteristic and
everything. she's my bestest friend !
we can sing in the middle of the road, talk about everything under the sun.
how i missed those time, but i'm still very glad to know she'll
be meeting me in a week or two, if not then she'll pass me some money to
spend :( i miss mummy,
3:38 AM
hello, world!
i'm so hungry :(
okay, yesterday i dug treasures in my house.
i got craps in the end. found, mummy's betsey johnson's
wallet cum clutch, not in a very good condition but, very handy :)
I LIKEEEEEEEEEEE~
thus, using it for temporary, until i got my own or maybe til
i saved enough to buy a wallet or clutch?
okay, then, we went visiting at a house nearby mine (aunt's place).
LOL, ya , for that outing made me spend money to buy a pierre
cardin's strapless bra. so i can use my corset :(
at night, we gambled, i lost 12$ again.
today, we went out to central to buy things and eat.
saw this very very very awesome laptop with awesome features and
awesome everything, (include the price).
buchuk, maybe getting that, it's so huge okay?
nvermind, we're planning to see if i can get my phone( OMNIA )
hoho! 800+ for 8 gb and 1000+ for 16gb:(
very very pathetic. the thing is, if i buy it then i wont be able to go shopping
for 1 year or more ?=.=
nonono, i need a help line .
anyway, i'm thinking of getting a huge hobo bag, i think coach's nice .
but:( i need to save money . so, if guess would have one, that'll be
spectacular. anyway, exams tomorrow. 3 more days, i've yet to study.
i think im going to flunk.
i hope not, i wont mind if i would to flunk next year but, please let me
promote this year :(
Thursday, October 2, 2008
4:10 AM
12 more days to my beloved 1 year 4 months annivasary:)
im so excited, i dont know why.
anyway, this few days im seriously exhausted but thats not the
problem, the problem is i guess im suffering from insomnia.
i could twist and turn and toss around on the bed for 3 hours and more,
just trying to go get some sleep :(
ended up having less than 5 hours sleep a day.
but, i only can nap in the afternoon though.
sooner or later all this will take a toll on my health, but hack.
in less than 4 months, my 16th birthday's approaching.
i dont know how am i ever going to celebrate it. uh, nvm long way to go.
i need a new phone, gosh! this one gonna die anytime, its so old now.
anyway, im out of point.
im going to go do my couple ring like next week or perhaps this coming
saturday , wheeeeeeee~
finally, after so much delays.
=.= gtg see what courses ITE offers, before i'll be left dumb.
it's good to prepare for the future you know.
im down-to-earth.
anyway, im dying, i need shopping, i'll kill myself if i dont go for one,
by end of next month.
no, prolly, i cant hold on for that long, maybe this month :)
after i get my phone, i'll kill myself if i dont get that f480.
okay, goodbye world.
one thing for sure, i know need you more
than everything else.
you're my superman
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
6:10 AM
today, is not something different, it's a typical annual
hari raya kind of thing :(
yes, we're so bored and stiff there.
my heels are producing unwanted blisters, helppppp!
then, my corset's so making me itch and pain.
my that bag i bought for raya, is so heavy.
just realised that not much of the people is as fortunate as us.
hoho, darwin(ex-schoolmate) and i compared duit raye.
he just have 90+$ (overall). heh, won him!
uh, nevermind. anyway, today at grandaunt's place.
rose and her family came back for raye from saudi arabia,
except for jasmine, her elder sister, in america for university.
sad case, the food, was awesome!
but, every year after food the kids wil hide in the bedroom caus more and more
ppl coming and all. we'll play games and computer and bla bla.
told you, i was so not excited. my very lovely boyf dropped by :)
thank you, dear .
anyway, i shall not complain, im going to eat my maggi that i just cooked.
then, im off to wait for my buchuk to come back home :)
tata, world