went to reborn my fringe and perm my hair(only the bottom), yesterday.
wanted to try something new, afterall not quite dissapointed only that
aunty cut my hair :(
=.=
okay, today malam raye already got $130. from just 4 person.
o.o ahston pun dapat seyyyy!
lol, he gets $6.50, pathetic uh. takpe!
now, that mat rep, raid, influence me to talk malay.
learning in process!
just so i could communicate better with them, later don't understand
malu sia.
heh. tomorrow hari raye!
im not excited, i dunno why.
went to get ashton's baju kurung yesterday and his pants today at ps.
handsome uh, my babyboy!
whoooooo.
im so proud of my boyf, he's so strong and cute.
<3 iloveu bebe, dont sad alrights?
Sunday, September 28, 2008
4:27 AM
i've the sudden urge to do many many things.
but i cannot:
firstly, im lazy
secondly, exams just tomorrow (i didnt study during the weekends,
busy playing sudoku)
thirdly, i dont have the courage to do
fourthly, time is not on my side
fifthly, i dont know how to start doing all these
i want to fulfil all those broken promises and dreams, made years ago.
i want to bring my girlies on a picnic in a park.
i want to own a house (not exactly, own a room)
i want to yada-yada....
(the list goes on..)
it's never ending you'll see..
bebe has been complaining that we've lesser time for each other
and so on and forth.
LOL.
2 more days to hari raya, i'm very excited not.
i've this bad feelings which keep lingers around, i wonder hard what is it?
Friday, September 26, 2008
5:43 AM
i miss bebe truck loads :)
i don't like the bag i bought yesterday =.=
ya i know, the more i look at it the more i dislike it.
it's so heavy, wonder why i bought it.
should have listen to bebe and get that bag that he fancy.
but to me, first look at it, it looks like aunty use de.
but, saw the pics of the bag in the catalogue it's so much nicer.
too bad, don't have the colour i like.
argggggh! i wonder why this few days keep making wrong decision.
what is wrong with me?
anyway, today went to geylang again.
bought my baju kebaya for raya.
to me, it's not nice :(
don't have any idea why i bought it.
so troublesome, so low cut, need to buy a tube summore.
so traslucent, but my granny likes it.
the more i think, the more i feel like im living for the sake of others.
let everyone else influence my thinking, and whatever not.
my grandaunt from america or somewher just came back to celebrate raya
with us this time.
i felt like very guilty.
everyone in the family like cheating her money, getting her to buy all
our raya stuff (most), and whatever thats not.
=.= especially the family staying with her.
dont like! so what if she's rich?
when she's in financial difficulty never seen anyone helping her.
god! why does all these people exists?
and grann also another one.
okay, whatever, went to my mummy's godmother's place in
joo chiat to get that army shirt for ashton and my gold guitar shirt.
(meant for nighties)
i miss bebe, i miss him alot.
thought a lot of the things he used to said.
i felt so guilty for everytime going against him caus he meant well for me.
i never knew how else the world's outside seems like.
he described it to me.
he protect me from all those hurting and bad influence of life.
he's the reason i lived for.
for the many things we have disagreement about, i seriously wished
all these would change in the future.
i believed i can change his thinkings, i knew he can change mine.
he never wants me to feel the harshness of the real world.
forever by my side making sure nobody do anything to me.
i knew he meant the world to me.
i love you,bebe
Thursday, September 25, 2008
3:03 AM
went to geylang yesterday to break fast at some sort of a cafe.
this few days are very very very tiring, i rushed my coursework.
im partially done, dont worry im fine:D
went to buy my bag for raya with bebe this afternoon.
not very excited about raya tho.
i got no mood to blog, this post is for sweetheart.
:)
Monday, September 22, 2008
2:51 AM
today, had a little small argument about my little little
crush, yes. im very honest, i told bebe about my lil crush.
shall not elaborate~
then, went to j8's charles & keith to get my shoe with grann, for raya.
heh~ shopped and saw this bonia speedy bag =$250
so, i decided to give up my champagne gold quilted VS angel speedy
thus, i'll save hard for my bonia speedy bag.
=.= i know, very fickle minded.
meanwhile, i'll use the money to do smth else.
this coming wednesday, grann gonna buy me that small lil
sling bag i saw at charles & keith for $39.90
hoho. just for raya, doubt i'll keep that bag for long.
then, we're going to go buy me a pair of clothes.
wait til next monday to go get my baju raya.
anyway, shall take this opportunity to apologise to my dearest bebe.
i'm sorry but i still love you more than ever !
Sunday, September 21, 2008
5:23 AM
bebe's and his family having financial problem until the 25th.
i dont know what to do.
was in the midst of buying my bag when i hesistate.
since bebe gonna just top up 25$ first then i'll pay the rest aftermath,
he'll give the the full sum by end of this month.
see what i meant, bebe? you need to have savings.
so now, i wonder, should i use that money to help his family or to go get my bag?
bag is minority, bebe and his family is my priority.
maybe they wont accept my help.
if i ever wanna help, i wont give the money to his hand, not caus i dont trust him,
lest he spends it away:( my hard saved money.
bebe, after seeing this post let me know what to do okay?
Saturday, September 20, 2008
8:42 PM
:) bebe & me are fine now~
yes, im very excited yesterday, i couldnt get to sleep.
bebe gonna get me my angel bag, cas gonna get me my
f480, next month. yes, :)
went browsing online shops, saw wetseals backpack.
OMG! mini hearts~ so caught my attention, but currently im broke.
would have to wait till at the end of the month, by then, i guess.
i would pass it, and get a roxy backpack instead?
yesyes, we're planning for the future yesterday, cas gonna go get a house
for daddy this year so prolly be moving next year, if god will.
then, 3 years down the road, cas gonna go buy his own house,
thus we'll definitely moved with him.
yes, told her to go get a bigger house prolly a 4 room flat?
i wann a room all by myself, and promised if i were to marry, i'll
still stay with her ! awwww~ how sweet?
=.=
okay, then, yesterday i couldn't resist the temptation when we went over
my aunt's place, i also so extra wann to bake my own cookie.
heh, first, failed then pass.
ordered some avon cosmetic, 1 loose powder , 1 foundation,
1 perfume. to help me last at least till the end of this year.
im giving away my other unused make ups.
by the end of this year, i guess, i'll have enough to get myself a brand new
make up kit, the whole kit, yes!
o.o cant wait for my phone!
i'll kill her if she just give me 200$.
couldnt forget, been dreaming about that bed for more than 3days alr.
soon, i'll buy you that ritzy 3000$ bed.