okay fine, this is my 2nd post for the day.
bi's off to lunch, bestie is so high now, sistarhs all
out and away, bitch having netball (i think?),
and the rest....(hais, i do not know what to say)


LIFE,
life is short and unpredictable.
people tends to say the person you're gna
marry to tends to be the person you DO NOT REALLY LOVE.
have you heard of that before?
i heard of it from someone.
haven't we all played away our life away, enough?
like i said, nobody dies a virgin, becaus in the end
LIFE FUCKS US ALL. (pathetic but true)
havent you see enough of all this?
havent you know what is right and wrong for you?
what's up with people taking drugs?
haven't you know whats the ending?
havent you got sick of it?
havent you know where it'll ends you up?
firstly, dont think "GUM" is mild.
it's never mild. it'll deteriorate your thinkings,
and for goodness sake if you do not actually know.
you can die from sudden sniffing (idk what shit).
but the main thing im tryna bring up here is, you can DIE.
yes just die like that, while sniffing.
havent you know that people thought they could fly,
when they sniffs gums?
and where do they end up? lying under your block,
DEAD.
CAUS THEY FLY THEIR WAY DOWN!
havent you know how pathetic is this all?
i mean, you'd think you've seen enough of th world or what?
have you ever try to see how beautiful Taj Mahal is?
have you see the lives of the poors?
have you experience being rich for a day?
and pop, you wanna end your life.
i dont think its funny, seriously.
i mean, yes you might think i'll be stupid and crapping.
then people will go like :
"eh then why baby still smokes?"
you know?you dunno so just shaddup.
you wont die all of the sudden without knowing why, from smoking.
you wont die instantly from puffing overly.
this is my life, and i chose it to be this way.
cant you tell hard that im trying to cut down?
=.-
anyway back to drug.
do you know that drug doesnt only harms you, but the person
around you? yes, both mentally and physically.
let me smack some sense into you.
take me for an example, if you think "ICE" is fun or cool.
let me tell you it's NOT.
what's about "ice" that will harm other people, beside the takers?
if you notice, my back, have a lot of dots and (idk what you call them).
it doesnt hurts, but it gets itchy some time.
this story of someone playing "ICE" in my house was a long
long time ago, but this thing is stuck with me FOR MY WHOLE LIFE.
ITS BEEN MORE THAN 5 YEARS NOW.
and i hafto live with it, damn! but true.
it's not nice, i cant wear tube, no corsets, no bikini.
(but i hack lur)
see.. tsk tsk tsk.
im not the bloody one who's playing the bloody thing but i got
that bloody thing on my back=.- it's a scar to me.
do you know that you can actually get violent when you
take drugs? do you know you can do things that you dont mean to?
do you know during all these process, someone else can get hurt?
CM'ON STUFF ALL THESE IN YOUR BRAIN NOW!
do you know, the money you used to buy all these
drugs is your parents hard-earned money?
[dont push this question to me, i use my own hard earn money ok!
; to buy my ciggs NO DRUGS!]
so practically, drug leads you to TWO place
1. PRISON, RTC, BOYS /GIRLS HOME
2.7 FEET UNDERGROUND UNDER YOUR TOMBSTONE
(death)

^^ common sense.
nieways, i just got back from lunch and my brain juice not
flowing so i cannot remember the whole bunch of
bullshit i was thinking just now:XX
so, main point is PLEASE DO NOT DESTROY YOUR LIFE,
BESTIEKU!
aiyoyo, all that i can say i already say..
the next time, i wont crap anymore about all this to you..
i'll just say "K, qo!" tu jekhh
i found out many unpleasant news,
so disheartening ( but doesnt really concerns me)
i had some( a few) matters that is bugging me,
deep inside, badly :(
i dont wanna tell anyone, dont wanna confide.
dont wanna hear the ugly truth !
not avoiding okay, is just CHOSE not to hear.
and deep down i already knew.
life is beautiful ; HAH BULLSHIT!
TELL YOU WHY NEXT TIME.
SAYONARA (: