had a big big tiff with bebe for the very past few days.
was an upcoming expecting one tho, for both of us.
its about time, spending more quality time together.
yes, it's a 1 year over more relationship. i've been given exactly,
a week to think things over while we're still together.
it's either sacrifsing or giving up this relationship.
at that very time, i wished mummy could call and tell me what to do.
i've been so left out, i've been so stressed up.
i've no time to find a new hobby like i used to, i've no time to join
classes, no time to plan for my future. life is like a river flow.
i dont want to go with the flow and say "hey, lets see whats next before
deciding" , and yada-yada. my education deproved, my financial not
managed, i've been spending much and i dont know what i spent on.
i feels like suicide is the best way, but i gave my word to mummy.
currently, listening to daddy's favourite song.
never did i listen to oldies or rock or (idontknow what you call em)
my parents gets me addicted and those songs just keep playing
and playing, got your tears rolling down your cheeks.
i dont find these songs outdated, they're very nice and unique.
stairway to heaven, used to listen to it with daddy on his mp3:)
and he'll sing it to me , how nice was that.
i've sort out my memories, keep them aside deep down in my heart.
it's one bad thing if you dont know how to deal with all this.
those who're closer to me, knew i've many problems with my family.
but, they mean more to me than anything.
i regretted those heated arguments i had between me and both my parent.
i'm very very thankful they're all understanding.
i used to scream at them(seperately) how much rights they do not have
to scream and yell and say about anything i bought, cause i used my own money to.
thats one thing they're proud of me though, i never actually claimed from them.
most of all my things i bought em. so, yet.. im still not independent enough.
well, nevermind.
i've been offered a job, to work for this japanese stall in a coffeeshop.
LOL. 1000$ a month. no off =.= 12-9pm.
great, i dont know how long i can endure.
but, i need the moolahs to buy my things and satisfy myself :(
im a low-esteem person. need to go build my own castle now,




goodbye, sayonara, tata:)