;i don't need another heeeeeeeartbreak,
leave me alone (:

*this post shall be for the past 3 days


wednesday(29/10):
went to amk mrt to meet raid (:
we just somehow slack behind the mrt station.
staring at each other, gave him his present.
and he asked what i gave to him, i opened it up and show it
to him=.= (why was i supposed to even be opening it?)
he took it, turn the bracelet and asked:
"how to open?"
LOL. i said:
"i told you, it was stretchabel(& showed to him)"
he took it, and wore it on the spot.
i felt very awkward though, was puffing half the time.
staring at him, staring at people, staring at the mrt station,
staring at the grasses, staring at people who stared at us.
i couldn't really bring up a topic to talk.
i couldn't smile and act as nothing is happening.
i opened my wallet check my things.
asked if he wants me to throw his photo(laminated).
he asked me to keep, i gave him back 1 instead (:
then i threw my old photo with my ex into the drain,
he thought it was his photo=.=
he picked it up, asked why i threw?
i said, why cannot? it's not his photo anyway.
i pulled his braclet and let go, asked if it hurts.
he said no, then yes.
(: then i said "this way, you wont take it out"
he acts as if he's gna take it out though, but he didn't.
as said, we hugged and we took peekchas.
i don't think i look nice in it :(
wasn't in the mood to smile neither is my hair
tied properly=.=
then at 4pm we bid goodbye.
(shall not elaborate)
at night, was msging with Darwin(another primary schoolmate,
same school as Raid)
he said Raid was stupid to leave a sweet girl like me,
i told Raid though.. he said.
"i've my reason to leave a sweet gal like you"
=.=
then at a later part, darwin couldn't get to sleep.
he calls me "ADINDA KU TERSAYANG"=.=
he said there's this feeling in him, to want to know me more.
asked me my fav colour,number,shopping place and drink.
(i actually answered them all)
then asked him why, he repeated that he wants to know me more & closer.
i said, "you mean you want to know me more than Raid does?"
he said "yeah"
=.= he said he msged me only then he happy.
i said, isn't that the reason why people talks to me?
isn't that the reason why people love me?(right, royhan??)
LOL.
didn't knew he had got feelings for me till the later part.
i rejected him though.
i said "i told you from the very beginning of this conversation,
i wouldn't want to go into a relationship.and you knew i still
love him"
he said it is worth a try, and asked how i knew if he's gonna hurt me?
but i still stick to my answer NO.
i had no feelings for him, neither will i in the future.
i like my life this way, and thats THAT!


thursday(30/10):
was supposed to meet sakhai but postponed to friday instead.
because i do not know how to get there.
went for HISTORY remedial=.= 1 hour, slacked.
finished at 11am but choy keep delay, and im supposed to meet
sofea(SWEETFACE) and im so late.
so i just walked out the classroom and off to kfc to meet her.
then we walked around central to get my bag(:
then after, i send her to school's back gate while i went home.
changed and off to central again, with buchuk and yadayada.
ate kfc (:
darwin msged and said i said he could msged me 24/7
i tetap layan!
hey, i do what i says okay.
he knows it too.
met ena my sistarh, lol.
since we're already at kfc.
she gave us a box of pizza to bring home.
planned to go to the zoo on the 10th with her.
went home, i dyed my hair=.=
fucked up, some gold not gold, some brown not brown,
black not black=.=
midnight, then i use my grandpa's hair dye dye back my hair .
natural brown =.= but like black.
and not enough hair dye so my hair turns like shit =.=
HAHAHAHAHAHA
nevermind, i shall go dye again.
dye twice in 1 day, my hair turns like __


friday(31/10):
went to school for social studies, 6girls 1 guy =.=
slacked, my hp not silent, msged openly,hears mp3.
choy doesn't even bother.and we 4
(sofea, me,yuefeng,xinyi)
hair colourful siol.
we got arguement with rulin(battle of the sexes)
LOL.
didnt went to meet sakhai at sembawang though :(
last minute he had to go to work.
o.o nevermind, i had many plans.
then after that i went to meet my ex(arthur) at boon keng(bendemeer).
he treat me $5 breakfast, ate macspicy oi!
talked about bendemeer people, pathetic.
asked why, bendemeer ppl 1 by 1 all wan toh alr?
then he said, "bendemeer ppl wont toh wan!"
=.= tsktsk, why lead this kind of life.
so much things had happened ever since i didnt went
down alr. it's only 3 weeks.
found out that those who supposed to come out from prison
already come out, supposed to run from boys home & hostel
already run out,supposed to go into hiding already went,
supposed to go school already go, supposed to go work already go.
didn't manage to finish it up, after that went to meet pinky
at towner (st. george).
still couldn't believe all these, never thought they will go stab people
and yadayada. for those landed in hospital, really pities them.
keep asking arthur, is this the kind of life they wanted?
:( felt very very very distraught.
then we sat and slack, they told me something so funny.
but i didnt laugh though.
they said got new kind of cigg selling in 7-11:
(in hokkien) kah nuah, am kun nuah, cui nuah, baby nuah =.=
^^in sequence: leg spoil, neck spoil, mouth spoil, baby spoil =.=
sumth like that lah, didnt really understand at first.
then realised they're saying about the picture in front of all
pckets of ciggs=.=
lol. pinky's am kun nuah, mine's cui nuah.LOL
i asked for 1 cigg, he asked wann sushi nuah not?
he take out his sushi gve me:(
afterall, was fun with them.
got tricked and bluffed as usual.
arthur's playing the same old prank he did 8months ago.
then he pinched my cheek, i pull his hair,and we cross the road.
LOL. he expects me not to be angry though.
mummy just called, check things out(:
said if i ever need somebody to talked to just text her,
and she'll give me a call.
how comforting is that?
haha, told her i want to go to shatec (:
she said she'll find her way to make me go to shatec if i really
wanted tooooooooo!wooooohooo!
i wants to go get a bike license when im 18(:
cm'on baby! it's time to do your own things.





tata earthlings(: